Christmas In California

Day:9 "Fifth wheeling."

Faith:

I yawn as I get out of my bed. I rub my eyes and straighten up.

I hug my stomach due to the intolerable pain. God. It hurts so bad.

I look at my bed knowingly and sigh when I see a tiny puddle of redness.

Ladies and gents, you now have to tolerate me being on my period.

I go to the bathroom and do my morning routine.

Me, Cassie, Lucy and her boyfriend and maybe Ryker, are supposed to go to the carnival today. Jesus. What an unlucky day.

Looks like I'm going to be fifth wheeling today. Really sucks being the only single one.

I get ready and go for breakfast. Unlike others, I barely get hungry during my period. Like everything just sucks, life sucks and overall its just a hateful period of time.

"Good morning. " Amy's chirpy voice reaches my ears as I walk down the stairs.

"Good morning. " I smile lightly at her.

"Hey. " Cassie looks up from her phone and says with a stuffed mouth making me roll my eyes.

"Hey. " I sit on one of the seats.

For breakfast today, we have some French toast. Yummy. What a waste though.

There's like a whole tray of them. Amy is a really good cook so no doubt she can make even an eggplant taste good. I take one of the bread and sprinkle it with cinnamon and there is goes down my throat into my stomach.

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"It's getting late, we should get going. " Cassie says as we are chilling in the living room.

I nod my head and stand up. She too stands up and we put on our shoes and I grab my bag where I stuff the important stuff like my phone, tissues, and the worst thing, tampons. I never really wear them only pads but hey! These are the only things available currently.

We sit in the car and head over to Lucy's house to pick her up.

"Is Ryker coming? " Cassie asks Lucy when we pick her up. I'm in the backseat alongside Cassie while Lucy and Owen are in the front seats.

"Yep. We are going to pick him up and then we are ready to go. " She confirms making me groan mentally.

Great. My fifth wheeling is really going to be fun.

We reach his house and I switch seats with Cassie who is sitting on the right window side. I sit anywhere but I really don't wanna sit beside him.

He comes inside the car wearing a white shirt with a denim jacket over it. I divert my eyes and stare at the view as I hear the annoying giggles that Cassie does each time Ryker makes a horrible joke. Lucy and Owen are busy in the front seat talking and laughing.

Haha, already fifth wheeling.

I should take a group photo where everyone is divided in pairs and then there is me. Lonely. That'd be a great profile picture for my instagram.

And just like that, the whole car ride passes by and we are here at the carnival.

Honest speaking, I have never really liked carnivals.

That isn't a big deal because I barely like anything.

I don't hate it but I don't love it either. I'm not a big fan of heights. Like I'm not afraid of them but if you would give me an option to drown or to jump, I'd choose drown.

Strange. I'm a strange child. Really am.

I once even tried to eat dish soap. Like. What is wrong with me. But that is a secret that nobody knows maybe except my father because he took me to the hospital when I couldn't stop throwing up.

I smile at the memory.

"Fai, you're day dreaming again. " Cassie sighs beside me.

"No I'm not. " I say looking at her. She gives me a knowing look to which I shrug.

"Whatever, let's go. " She drags me though the entrance and here we are at the carnival.

Okay, off topic but I really wanna visit Disney World right now.

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I awkwardly take the 'last' picture for Lucy and Owen.

The last picture has already been 6 pictures.

I don't even know where the hell Cassie and Ryker are. They just went away and had been hanging out on their own.

Leaving me third wheeling Owen and Lucy. By that, I mean that I left them because being alone is better than third wheeling.

I had been roaming around doing nothing but staring at everyone. Weird. Very weird and creepy.

Every seems so happy but maybe they aren't. Some just wanna pass time while some wanna live it to the fullest.

I saw Cassie and Ryker a few times, either on the games or the rides.

When it was getting late, I called Cassie.

"Hey Cassie-" I say as she picks up.

"It's Ryker. "

"Oh. Where is Cassie? "

"She is in the bathroom. "

"Oh okay. Tell her to call me back when she returns. " was all I said before I hear him go 'hm' and hang up.

I nod to myself as I try to find Owen and Lucy again. I spot them on a game where Owen was trying to win Lucy the prize.

As I'm walking to them, Cassie calls me up.

"Hey, what is it? " She says as soon as I pick up.

"Hey, I wanted to ask if you are ready to go home, it's getting late.. "

"Yeah, sure. Ask Lucy. "

"Alright. I'll see you at the entrance, bye. "

"Okay! Bye.. " She hangs up.

I once again make my way to Lucy.

I tap on her shoulder getting her attention.

"Hey, you ready to go home..? "

"Yep. Did you tell Ryker and Cassandra?" She asks as she takes the prize from Owen.

I feel single. I nod to her and we head to the entrance where we see Cassie and Ryker.

Cassie has a bundle of prizes in her arms and so does Lucy. And there's me.

Empty handed with a bag of food.

We head to the car and settle in out old seats.

Believe me, it was really fun fifth wheeling today.

Note the sarcasm.

When we home, Cassie didn't waste a minute in telling me all about her and Ryker and how he won so many plushies and prizes for her and how they even held hands on the rides.

It was really nice knowing that there actually might be a chance where the guy you loved, has started to like your best friend.

Not that I'm mad or anything.

Actually screw that. I'm mad. But I don't have to be.

It's my fault after all. I shouldn't be this mean and selfish.

If he's happy with her, then it's okay. He's happy, I'm happy. She's happy, I'm happy.

Yep. That doesn't make much sense but it does for me.

If Ryker and Cassie are happy, then I'll support them.

With that thought, I force myself to sleep.

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Merry Chrimus 🎄