Lastly (L.T.)

Chapter 44

Alright so don't hate me for all the notifications I've probably ended up giving you, but I wanted to add a pic of Lou to the top of each chapter. They're all original pictures that I took during the livestream so there might be some shots of him that you haven't seen before. And yes, there are some repeats because I didn't literally have 44 pictures but I like that they add a little something to the top of each chapter. Enjoy!

Also not me updating at midnight again...I really need to figure out how to get some sleep...
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The water was lovely and calm around us, washing the sweat and cum from our skin and my head rested lightly on his chest, feeling it rise and fall with each of his heavy breaths.

His arms were wrapped around my waist and mine were around his neck while our breathing slowly returned to normal. His lips were resting against my forehead while he panted lightly against my skin. His scent was all around me and I absolutely loved it.

It felt so good to just rest, letting ourselves be in the moment. I had missed feeling him near me and the soft skin contact felt more like love than anything I had ever felt in my entire life.

Love.

I loved him. I knew that now. As much time as I had spent trying to tell myself something different, I knew. Part of me thought I had known all along. I loved him. How strange.

I wondered what people usually do in these situations. What do people usually do when they figure out they love someone? What did Louis want me to do? Did he feel the same way?

My head was swirling with questions again and I forced myself to take a deep breath, inhaling his scent and staying in the moment. I wanted to be present and just enjoy my time with him. I was always questioning everything and always on edge and I was sick of it. He was here and warm and with me and he deserved my full attention, not my doubts and questions. If I had questions I needed to ask him, not stand here in a whirlwind of my own thoughts, too busy thinking to enjoy the moment until the moment was over.

"Lou?" I whispered against his chest.

"Mm?" He grunted into my hair.

"What is this? What are we? We've never really talked about it."

He thought for a moment, "what do you want to be?"

I shrugged lightly, "I mean, are we exclusive? What do you want out of this?"

"Well I assume we're exclusive. Are you fucking anyone else?" He asked so bluntly that I was taken aback.

"No, of course not, I.."

He cut me off "then we're exclusive. Do you want to be my girlfriend? Is that what this is about?"

I hated how small my voice sounded when I spoke, "yes. I mean, if you want me to..."

"Then you're my girlfriend."

He said it with such an air of confidence and finality that I couldn't help but smile against his chest.

"My Kess." He said, pressing a firm kiss to my forehead, and I tilted my head up so I could meet his lips.

He tasted just as sweet and heavy as he had earlier. The kiss was sweet and slow, full of emotion and it wasn't starting anything, just building on all of the feelings that we had piled up over such a short time.

He was mine, all mine.

And I would be damned if the thought didn't make my heart soar.

"My Louis." I whispered against his mouth, before he slipped his tongue along my lower lip and I eagerly invited him in.