BASTARD 2: Tjardo Voltemaz - The Deception

CHAPTER 15: Unlock The Past

CHAPTER 15

DAYS LATER, Tjardo's mind was still fucked up about the news he just unexpectedly discovered. He was messed in the days of Matilda's interment. He barely leaving his room or even do his routines. He also seldom taking a bath or eat to bring his resistance back. At all, he's been trying to mend his broken heart.

Nanatiling nakalugmok siya sa mahabang sofa habang patuloy parin nilalasing ang sarili. Katabi niya ang kanyang phone na natumpok na ng notification na madalang niyang binubuksan. He also forget how to answered his calls and updates about their company.

Literally, everything about him went blank after the sudden news that came up to him.

Hindi niya kayang paniwalaan ang lahat gayon sa palagay niya na tila nagkulang siya, ilang paraan narin ang ginawa niya para kalimutan iyon ngunit mas lalong lumalala ang pangungulila niya kay Matilda sa tuwing naiisip niya ito.

Maybe any time by now he will turn crazy if he still persist to drown himself in liquor or maybe he's insane to actually do nothing that can still somehow change the matter. He's really fucked up!

Tinungga muli ni Tjardo ang bote ng rum habang nakatulala siya sa madilim na kisame ng kuwarto niya. He prefer the darkness of his room where he could find solace and comfort. It somehow helps him to ease everything that is tensed to him.

Bumuga siya ng marahas na hangin ng marinig niyang may kumatok sa pinto ng kanyang silid. He knows it was his father again that will convince him to come out and talk to him about the issue to his parents.

Sawang-sawa na talaga siya na makipagpasuwayan sa ama sa wala nitong puntong pag-uusapan, kaya kahit gusto niya mang pagbuksan ito ay hindi niya magawa.

He even had no nerve to talk to him after he discovered that Matilda was his true biological parent. It's complicated to think about that Matilda was his true mother all along. Kaya pala palagi niyang nararamdaman ang lukso ng dugo sa tuwing napapalapit siya sa matanda.

Ang hirap kumpirmahin at sabihin na iyon nga ang katotohanan na nakabaon. That means he live in a world that everything surround him was only counterfeit and this life that he thought was a dream is just fake. He can't accept to see himself living under the deception even in the past about to his parents.

And that makes him hate his Dad for not telling him everything about it. Para na kasing napasan niya ang problema sa pagkawalay niya sa totoong ina. The truth that he has right to know, it felt like his Dad take those all away.

Nasaktan talaga siya ng husto sa kanyang mga natuklasan. Sa gawing iyon ay parang nakaramdam siya ng pagkukulang ng malaman niya ang totoo niyang magulang.

Sa bawat naiisip niya ang mga oras na kasama niya si Matilda, hindi niya maiwasan ang magsisi na sa bawat pag-alaga nito ay palagi niyang nararamdaman ang pagnalaytay ng kanyang dugo at senyales na pala iyon na si Matilda nga ang totoo niyang ina.

The pain of realizing everything about it was too strong to bear to the point that he barely contemplate on how he'll gonna do just to stop it. Gayon gulong-gulo na talaga ang isipan niya, parang sasabog na iyon dahil hindi parin siya naliliwanagan sa mga pangyayaring biglang dinulog siya.

If he just only know the truth! He already settle everything right. Baka rin naibigay niya na rin ang pagmamahal na hinihingi rin ng ina sa kanilang mga anak. Ang sakit isipin na ang lahat ng iyon ay di niya na magagawa o masusuklian pa.