Questions | Five Hargreeves • The Umbrella Academy •

Ch. 9

"I never asked you this before Amura but... Why don't you use your powers for your own sake?" Five asked while he drove off in the middle of the night because as Five said, 'They are off to somewhere quite far.'

"I do use it for my own sake." She shrugged while she looks out the window.

"Yeah right, for searching for me." And that made Amura caught dead on the tracks once again.

She didn't utter an answer this time, making Five take a quick glance.

"Were you hiding something from me?" He asked, his mind filled with different negative thoughts.

Like Amura betraying her all this time, or being heartbroken about it, to the point that he might actually cry and kill Amura, then kill himself afterwards.

"It's not that I don't trust you Five... Or that you shouldn't trust me, it's just that... We have so many things to take care of other than my own problems." She said, not even looking at him and just outside.

Five kept quiet for a minute, thinking to himself, until he realized something, "You know... You saw me at my worst times, cried with me and understood my suffering... But I didn't got to do that with yours as you never told me about it... I want it to be fair Amura, plus... We have a long trip until morning so, lay it on me."

This made Amura look at him, shock and somewhat amused.

"You asked why I seldom use my power for myself?" She asked which made Five nod.

"You're not the only person I memorized their face." She said that made Five somewhat, jealous.

"I still remember my Mother's face up until today. The reason why I don't use it for myself is because I always wanted that normal life back, just like the times I had with her." Five felt stupid for thinking like that, but focused back onto listening to her.

Also confused as to why he felt jealous.

"That is also why I came with you... Well, one of the reasons." She chuckled.

Five unknowingly anticipated, "What are the other reasons?" He asked.

"Well, the other was the one I told you about... You dying in my arms." She looked sad once again.

"The other was because I was feeling lonely, and I thought that since you felt lonely too... You'll understand me." She looked at him and he glanced back.

Staring at each others eyes for a second, her hazelnut colored eyes to his green ones. And was cut off when Five turned his attention back to the road.

"The Handler only ordered me to keep an eye on you through my powers two times, one was the first time that you came to the apocalypse and the other was when she recruited you... The fact that I kept watching you was my own will." She confessed.

"It was because, like what I said... I was feeling lonely and lost, ever since my Mother died. I have lived a normal life even though I had powers, and it felt so wonderful. I may have not experienced the same thing as you did at the apocalypse, but I felt the same thing that you did." She added.

"I was taken by an unknown stranger, forced to train with unknown people, I was around by people I don't know, surroundings that I don't know, I was lost and lonely and I only wanted my Mother back with me."

"I never was taken into my grandparents custody as they disowned my Mother for being one of the 43 girls that got pregnant without intercourse, they never bought that. My mother loved me, raised me with love, all by herself. She was so strong. And yet, she was taken away from me..."

"Handler said I can go back in time and be with her, so I was placed at the Corrections and killed people, but as I grew up... I thought that it was impossible to save her, she was sick. Not killed. Making me quit the Corrections and work at the Infinite Switchboard." Amura looked at him.

"Sorry, you were forced back to the Corrections." Five said, his jaw was clenching.

"I chose to be there remember? I wanted to be there. Not because I want to kill, but because I can be with you... And go back to your family to stop the apocalypse and actually have a normal life." Amura ranted nervously.

"Sorry for ranting." She chuckled.

"No... It's alright, it was nice knowing you more." Five unclenched his jaw and softly smiled at her.

"You also asked me before... If I was scared of using my power?" She asked him.

"Yeah, back at home..." He muttered.

"Well yeah, you're right... I was scared. I was scared to see people's deaths. Especially those who are special to me." She said with her eyes resting on Five's features.

"I saw my Mother's death too, while I was just you know... Playing with my power. I thought it was another path, something out of the alternate futures, something impossible to happen." She returned her attention outside.

"But it did." She softly said making Five look at her worriedly.

"And I didn't learned my lesson not until I accidentally saw your death... What's stranger was, there was no other futures after that... The path ended, and it scares me so much Five." She was on the verge of tears again.

Five chuckled, "What the fuck Five?" She lightly pushed him.

"No. No... It's just, when you're talking about yourself... You don't even shed a single tear and when it comes to mine, you always bawl your eyes out." Five finds it cute instead of funny though he won't admit it.

"Maybe I just lost my ability to cry my own tears as well Five, making me only cry yours." She chuckled as well, finding it silly now than offensive.

"I don't know if I can cry yours but, I can be mad when you can't." This made Amura laugh.

"I can be mad by myself, and 1977 is the proof of that." Five winced at that.

"Well, that was clearly my fault." They both laughed, not even knowing that the sun is already up and they were near the building of the eye prosthetics' manufacturing company Five has been holding onto for the last 45 years.

Meritech Prosthetic's.