Trying to love (Elijah Mikaelson)

Chapter 9

Stalking carefully throughout the forest, I felt Niklaus on my left and Elijah on my right. They had started me off on a simple task, to use my speed to score a small rabbit or a deer.

I halted as I felt the movement of the leaves to the left of me. But as I pounced, the rabbit had already burrowed down and I sighed in anger

"This is much easier with people" I grunted, not realising what I had said in front of Elijah. Niklaus had been taking me into the village for a couple of nights without Elijah's awareness.

I looked urgently at Klaus, my expression urged him to come clean and tell Elijah. Niklaus grunted and began to speak "Elijah, you cannot expect the poor thing to feed on cute bunnies and god knows what other creatures live here" he began, Elijah glanced at my guilt filled face and then back to Niklaus

"So what has been happening?" He asked curiously

"I have been taking her into the village for real food, on the first night, when I found her curled up in the bathroom, her hunger needed quenching, so I took her" he explained

"Why didn't you tell me Amelia?" He asked again

"Because I want you to think more of me than just some new vampire, I want to control it like you do, but rabbits do not help but make me weaker and more hungry" I answered, holding back sobs.

"Okay" Elijah sighed "we will go back home and tonight I'll take you out into the village, maybe we can master the compulsion side of things" and with that we all turned, Niklaus following behind.
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*Elijah's POV*

I was infuriated on the walk home, how dare Niklaus take it upon himself and manipulate the poor girl into feeding on humans. How would she be able to control her hunger?

Walking home, she strode next to me, looking towards the ground. I could not help but think that it was all my fault.

If I had not left her side on the fateful night, Edward would have ran into me, or she would have known better to wander in the maze unaccompanied. I shot myself down for this, her blood was on my hands, even more so than the vermin who actually killed her.

I sighed and edged closer to her, grabbing her hand and reassuring her that I wi fix this mess that I have made. I felt her muscles tense but then relax, as she found it comfortable to be in my grasp.

All I could think about was cleaning this up and helping her live an innocent life, despite of what she needs to survive.

We all got into the house after a few moments of taking in nature and reflecting upon the few days. She has decided that tomorrow would be the day that she avenges her death, and I completely understand.

I asked Amelia if she could give us brothers some privacy as we needed to talk. We both walked to the bedroom for some privacy, I didn't want her worrying.

"Niklaus, did it ever occur to you that she is my love, anything that happens I would appreciate to be educated on" I started, raising my voice ever so slightly

"Calm down brother, she is a predator, she needs to hunt" he retaliated. The word predator sent shivers down my back. It was hard to think someone so childlike and young could be capable of massacres.

"I would have eased her into it, she would be able to control her thirst more when she had human blood in moderation" I fought, biting my lip out of anger

"Eased her?" Niklaus laughed "the poor thing was dying because she was that hungry, I did nothing but save her life"

"And that is what I should have done, when she was human, I should have stayed with her" tears welled in my eyes "but no, we were playing games, taking a risk on that one chance that Edward had stayed home, but no, he came and she turned into a..."

"... Into a what brother?" My fury grew and I couldn't help but shout it

"A monster!" I exclaimed, I immediately regretted my choice of words as I heard a small voice sound from the door

"You think I'm a monster?" I turned to see Amelia there, her face showed her broken heart and her tears flooded down.

I stepped forwards, as if to show her that the words I had used were not true. But she stepped away, breaking eye contact and looking like she was deep in thought.

"Excuse me" she said, holding back the tears before walking off at a fast pace

*Amelia's POV*

A monster? Of all the words he could have used to describe me, he used a monster.

I sat on a chair in the dining hall, the sun was blocked by few grey clouds which completely matched my mood.

Elijah's light footsteps grew louder until they stopped at the doorway. My body slumped over the table did not flinch or look when I heard him breathe.

"Amelia..." He began, I looked and saw his brain working to think of a reasonable explanation of what he had said

"It's okay Elijah, it's true, I have killed people, I have showed no mercy and yet I still want more" I closed my eyes and sighed

"But you have not killed as much as me, I have massacred villages and murdered plenty to feel blessed to be called such thing as little as a monster" he explained. I stood up at the comment

"Yet, you have kept your virtue and mine is deteriorating by the day, by the hour, the minute. Every second I find myself thirsting for another's blood, to feel their body slump in my hand. Elijah I fear that I will learn no control and I will be outcastes from your affection" I argued

"That will never happen" he commented

"I am afraid that it has already begun. You do not look at me in the same way as you did before and the only attention I could ever get off you in these short days is when I undress myself" I spoke the truth "you did not even realise that I have been missing the nights that I had fed upon the flesh of people I knew" I cried

"Amelia, I had no idea..."

"Maybe I'm not the frail little girl you rescued from Edward's grasp, and maybe that was what you were looking for, someone to look after, someone you believed you could fix. But Elijah, I am more broken than ever and you discard me like a whore in a brothel"

"I did not search for someone broken or in need of saving" he quietly replied

"Elijah I know you, Niklaus knows you, and I have heard stories about your cases, where you found it your obligation to fix broken souls, maybe you didn't feel affection for me in the first place, just a desire to fix what had been broken, but the thing was, Elijah I have feelings for you..."

I was halted by Elijah's firm lips against mine, the passion that I found
missing, returned within seconds of his touch. His hands wrapped around my waist and he pulled myself into him.

I closed my eyes and relaxed , allowing the excess tears to fall from my eyes until I was utterly dry. The first breathe we took Elijah managed to push words out

"I love you more than you can possibly imagine Amelia" he whispered, he loved me! We hadn't shared words like this before, only affections. But I heard his tone and it was true, I trusted him.

"I love you as well" I smiled, the recent memories of arguments and name calling slid from my mind and we lost ourselves in one another