Diaphanous | poetry ✓

Deplore

Deplore: feel or express strong disapproval of (something)
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the hardest part of getting old,
is dealing with regrets,
accepting there's no going back
one chance is all i get

facing dreams that i once had
that never did come true,
and knowing they can't be achieved
and there's nothing now to do

recalling choices that I made
that clearly changed my life
times when i retreated
when i should have stood to fight

people that i pushed away
who only meant me well
while holding on to other ones
who made my life a hell

not working hard on friendships,
or family members
i think the only reason
i'm alone

if I had to do it all again,
jt wouldn't be the same

i would reach back more to others
who had tried to pull me close
and cherish all those people,
who had cared for me the most

i would not accept hurt or abuse
but demand love and respect

but as for all the time I lost,
and the things that I can't change
i have to let it go for good
and focus on the time that now remains

for there are no second chances
this is the life i made

but i pray that by my being here,
i've made a difference in some way

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