you are loved. - r.lupin (ft. THE s.black)

untold secrets

Caroline squealed when Remus' hands travelled to her butt and he squeezed them gently. He smiled into their kiss and Caroline played with the tips of his dark blonde locks. Caroline was the first to pull away and she rested her forehead on his.

Their heated breaths mingled together and Caroline could barely see him in the dark closet but she could tell he was happy. "Can I ask you a question, darling?"

"Of course," Caroline responded. She loved it when Remus called her darling mainly because nobody else but him called her that. He made her feel more special than he would ever know.

"Is your real name Alexandra?" Remus asked, a hint of mocking in his tone. Caroline laughed and moved more away from Remus but he was still holding onto her like he would never let go.

"Bloody hell, how did you find out? I hated that name," Caroline exclaimed.

"Peter told me," he half-lied. He had found out the same way Sirius and James had, from the Marauder's Map. Peter was the one who confirmed it though, so in a way, Peter did tell him.

"I changed it on my 8th birthday. I had to go down to an office and everything. Alexandra was such a horrid name and I never thought it fit me right," Caroline huffed. "I can't believe you found out."

"It's nothing to be ashamed of, darling. I like the name Alexandra almost as much as I like you," Remus assured. Caroline smiled at him and kissed him again. His lips felt the same as before and he smelled the same as before but each time she kissed him, it felt different and better than the last.

Remus removed his lips from hers and began pecking at Caroline's neck. She laughed from the feeling, it felt light but sweet like little feathers. Caroline's mind started to wander and she stared at the dark but blank ceiling.

"You don't have a lot of secrets, right Rem?"

Remus only briefly poked his head up from the crook of her neck and smiled. "No, darling, I don't."

"And you'd tell me if you were hiding something, right?" Caroline assumed that Snape's information about Remus was completely false but she started to realize that he would get sick sometimes and he would show up to breakfast with a new scar every now and then. The idea of Remus being a werewolf was possible but Caroline just wanted to know.

"Yeah," Remus answered slowly. He thought Caroline had figured out his furry little problem but he shook off the crazy idea and began kissing her neck again. Remus had been so careful around her. They'd been together for less than a month but he never let anything get too far when he knew there were new cuts or bruises under his shirt. He even made up stories about his angry cat when he didn't even have a cat but it helped explain the little scars and scratches.

"You know you can trust me with anything, right?" Caroline asked. Remus shifted away from her completely so they were no longer touching.

"What are you going on about, Care?"

"Nothing, it's stupid." Caroline bent down and picked up her tote bag from the floor. She slung it over her right shoulder and Remus just watched her intently. "It's nothing, really. Let's just get to class," she suggested.

She didn't wait for Remus' response as she opened the door of the broom closet and left for Defense Against the Dark Arts.

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"What do you want to do after you leave Hogwarts?"

"I want to be an Auror." Sirius answered the question so quickly that it even surprised him. He wanted to be an Auror since third year but he's never told anyone except for James, who planned on being an Auror as well.

Caroline smiled happily and intertwined her hands behind her back. The two were walking on the grassy field on their way to the edge of the Forbidden Forest. Ever since that one time in May, they've had monthly picnics together. "I want to be an Auror too. Do you think we'll be going on missions together?"

"I hope so," Sirius exclaimed eagerly. "I can imagine the two of us capturing Death Eaters. We'd be like the Dream Team!"

"It obviously won't be just the two of us going on missions by ourselves," Caroline stated, deflating Sirius' happiness slightly. "We'd have to be in groups of at least 5 people and James would definitely squeeze himself into our missions so we'd be a trio, not a duo. Like the Powerpuff Girls."

Sirius snorted and slung his arm over Caroline's shoulders easily. "Did you really just compare us to the Powerpuff girls?" he scoffed.

"As a matter of a fact, I did. I would be Bubbles and you would be Buttercup and James would be Blossom," Caroline clarified. Both of her hands were wrapped around the wooden handle of the heavy basket, containing all of their food and the picnic blanket.

"Why do I have to be Buttercup?" Sirius whined. "I think I could be a good team leader, so that would make me Blossom and James would be Buttercup. Here, let me take that." Sirius grabbed the heavy basket from Caroline's dainty hands and held it in his left hand.

"You would be Buttercup because James couldn't possibly be Buttercup," Caroline argued.

"I beg to differ. I think James would be Buttercup and he would be a damn good Buttercup," Sirius countered. They arrived in their usual area and Sirius opened the woven basket. He pulled out the red and white plaid blanket and Caroline helped him lay it down.

"Honestly, I think it just depends on the topic. Most of the time, James would be the leader though," Caroline said casually. She put the basket in the center of the blanket and began laying out the contents in a perfect formation.

"Whatever," Sirius said. He started eating the freshly-made lasagna from the white dish, which Caroline had brought to their picnics ever since she found out that lasagna was his favorite food.

She picked at her fruit salad that the elves had prepared and pushed all the blackberries and raspberries to the side. Caroline never ate them but she was too nice to tell the elves that she didn't want them because they just looked so happy preparing the foods.

"Isn't it crazy that in a few years, we'll all probably be married and have children?" Caroline asked out of the blue. "I mean, it seems like we have so much time left but once we leave Hogwarts, our lives will change completely."

"I hope we don't lose touch with each other," Sirius said hopefully. "That would suck arse."

Caroline laughed and put her fork down. "Yeah, that would."