While on tour Ashton has been struggling the past couple of months, while no one seems to notice, until Luke does one day. Luke who has started drinking again struggles to contain his back and forth mindset with his feelings towards Ashton and his own issues. Luke's battle with substance abuse and Ashton's declining mental health, mixed into their already crazy lives, starts a horrible downhill spiral for one of them. Trigger warning This book contains graphic descriptions and feelings that the reader may be trigger by, please read at your comfort level, this book is also incomplete and I haven't edited the chapters at the top to contain trigger warnings yet. -work in progress- Started in 2017 and picked up again in 2024. I feel like my writing has changed a lot since 2017, very unedited, just something for me to do/ keep me occupied.