Nephilim Love

Chapter 10

Clary

"Hey, even though it hurts, I do understand and do not blame you at all. At least as mundanes, our paths will always cross and we will remain family. You came into Jace's life and influenced him in ways that no one was able to. You brought out the best in our brother and he has never loved anyone as much as he loves you. The two of you together make a great team and deserve to be happy no matter what the cost."

"I think we all agree with that. Whatever you decide, we will be there for you. I miss Jace as my parabatai, but he is still my brother and that will never go away." 

Jace put his arm around me and kissed the top of my head. He looked at our little family and smiled.

"I knew that I can count on you guys. That is why I love you because you always back us up. I am not going to say that living the mundane life is easy for me, but I love Clary and our child more than my Shadowhunter days. I will be alright as long as she is by my side."

All of a sudden, I felt like my body was on fire and I screamed. I fell and Jace caught my head before it hit the floor. Everyone gathered around me and seen all my runes appearing all at the same time and glowing like gold. I started to hold my head with both hands and start to scream even louder as my memories of the shadow world started coming back to me. Then everything went black. When I woke up, I was laying in bed with Jace at my side. The room was dark and we were alone. As soon as I moved, Jace sat up right away.

"Clary, are you alright?"

"What happened? How long have I been out?"  

"Three hours. Everyone left after the first hour. It was incredible to watch! All your runes came back at the same time. You held your head, screamed, and passed out. Why were you holding your head? Do you remember?"

"My memories all came back at the same time. It was so overwhelming and painful. One thing that was good about the whole thing is that I remember you, us, and what we had. The only memory that I always had that the angels never were able to take away from me, was the one hidden in my heart, all my love for you. I love you, Jace Herondale, always have, and always will, until the day I die and after that."

"I love you more than life itself and nothing will ever take that away from me. Now we have to decide what we want to do, now that you have all your runes back. I volunteered to get rid of mine to be with you, but I cannot tell you what to do with yours."

"Of course I want to be de-runed. I do not want to be a Shadowhunter after what the angels did to me. You and our baby are the most important part of my life and I will not be part of a life that could take you away from me whenever they please. This is the life I want, the one we have right now. The two of us together and happy."

"This is what I always wanted, Clary, you and our own little family. Whatever you decide is going to be alright for me. If you choose to be a Shadowhunter, then I will be one too. If you decide to stay mundane, then I will be by your side."

Jace

I held Clary in my arms and we both stood quiet for a while. I could see that she was deep in thought and I was wondering what she was thinking of. After a while, she looked at me and sighed.

"Jace, I hope that I am making the right decision. Deciding not to be a Shadowhunter because of the anger I hold against the angel, might not be a good reason. I will be taking away from you what you have loved, being a Shadowhunter, a warrior of the Clave. The love for your Seraph blades and the hunt. We were a good team and we did a lot of good with our skills and gifts. Am I being selfish, are we?"

"I have to admit that I surely am. All I wanted was to have you back in my arms and in my bed, next to me. I missed everything about you Clary and I felt my life empty without you. That is why I followed you around and made sure that I protected you. The day I followed you to the doctor's office and seen the sonogram of our child, that is when I made my decision to join you in the mundane world. Everything that I held important to me meant nothing without you and my soon-to-be-born child. I did not care who or what I left behind and requested to be de-runed. I could not bear to be in the shadow world without you."