Sanders Sides oneshot book (pt2)(Requests CLOSED)

Moxiety angst/platonic royality fluff

Little space
Panic attacks
Trauma related things
Shouting/yelling mentions
Platonic relationship between Patton and Roman that seems like dating (cuddles, forehead kisses, pet names)
Implied ED and self hate/selfharm
Self punishments (no detail, just mentioned)

If I missed any, please tell me

When Patton was young, he had male figures in his life who when the tiniest thing made then upset would yell and scream. One was violent. One just yelled and put him down.

So when Patton was older, a slight raise of voice would often send him into a panic attack.

But Virgil didn't seem to understand this. When Patton didnt eat, he often would get annoyed. He'd be firm and to Patton, aggressive, to get his point across.

One day, Patton was already in little space a bit. And he skipped into the kitchen where Virgil was making food.
"Hey love, are you hungry?" Virgil asked. Patton shook his head and hugged him around the middle. "Have you eaten today?" Patton shook his head again.

"You didnt eat yesturday either. You need to eat," Virgil said calmly. Patton whined and shook his head.
"Not hungry," he said in a slightly whiney tone.

"Patton, no. Eat dinner," Virgil said firmly. He didnt hear the soft whimper, just felt Patton unlatch from him. He turned and saw Patton take a step back.
"What?"
"N-nothing,"
"Why are you being weird? Just eat your food,"
"No," Patton whimpered.
"Patton I swear to god. Eat it NOW," Virgil spoke so angrily in Pattons mind. Pattons took it so aggressively. He felt tears in his eyes as he shook his head, turning and running down the hall. Virgil sighed and just let him go.

Patton sat crying on his bed, shaking and letting out little hiccups and choking on his sobs.

Why did Virgil yell at him? Patton knew deep down he hadn't actually yelled...but he felt like he had. It really felt like he'd been shouted at. Even when big Patton would have taken it bad and would have probably slipped into little space because of it. But he was already little.

"Papa?" Patton whimpered into the phone, calling Roman.
"Hey cutie. Are you ok?" Roman asked softly.
"Daddy yelled at me," Patton whimpered, wiping his eyes.
"Oh sweetie. Do you want me to come over?" Patton made a sound saying yes. "Alright. I'll be over in a bit, you stay where you are and try to relax, ok?"
"Ok papa,"

"Hey Roman, whatcha need?" Virgil answered the door.
"Checking on Patton. He called me sobbing," Roman tried not to sound pissed or growl at Virgil.
"Hes fine, just being defiant,"
"Then let me see him," Roman pushed past and went to the bedroom. The second the door opened, he heard Patton squeal in fear.

"Baby it's just me," Roman cooed. He walked over and lifted the blanket off Pattons head, the smaller immediately grabbing him and hugging him tight.

"What happened?" Roman whispered, stroking his hair and rubbing his back.
"D-daddy wanted me to eat but I said no a-and he got mad," Patton whimpered.

"Cmon, let's go talk to him," Roman picked him up and carried Patton to the living room. Virgil seemed annoyed, seeing Roman carrying him.

"Virgil did you realize Patton was little when you got angry with him?"
"He was little?!" Virgil gasped.
"Yes. He was. He had been texting me and wanted cuddles so I told him to go find you and get cuddles," Roman adjusted Patton slightly, the little whining and holding him tighter. "Then 5 minutes later, he calls me sobbing violently. Telling me you had yelled at him,"
"I never yelled. I told him he needed to eat because he hasnt,"

"Maybe you didnt actually yell. But did you raise your voice? Was he moving away and stuttering?"
"Yeah..." Virgil quieted slightly, realizing what he had done. He had caused this...to Patton brain, he was shouting and angry. And he knew what Pattons father figures had done to him, he knew how aggressive and angry they had both been.

And to Patton, he'd done the same thing.
"I'll let you know this isnt the first time this had happened. Its happened lots in the past two months, answering my phone and Pattons crying or very upset. Because you raised your voice or scared him," Roman was very angry.

He held Patton tight and close to him, protecting him. He didnt shout. He didnt yell. He couldnt, not with Patton so close and already so upset. Hearing them fighting would only make it worse.

"I didnt know, I didnt mean to," Virgil defended.
"But you still did. And I'm tired of having to comfort him because of you. I love Patton, I care about him. I'll always be there to help him. But it shouldn't be so often that I, who is only his bestfriend, have to comfort him and tell him that you love him and just made a mistake because you didnt know. So often, he calls me and asks if you hate him or dont love him. He punishes himself because he thinks that because you shout or raise your voice, he thinks he deserves a punishment," Roman let it all out. Everything. This was months of listening, comforting and begging Patton to be safe all coming out.

Virgil sat silent and shocked.

"Papa, I'm tired," he heard Patton whimper.
"I know hon. I'll take you to bed and give you cuddles, ok?" Patton nodded happily, snuggling up close to him.

"Keep this up...and I'll be replacing you," Roman threatened before taking Patton to his room. After tucking him I and giving him a plushie, Roman laid beside him. Patton snuggled into his chest and giggled.
"Love you papa," Patton said happily. Roman kissed his head and held him.
"Love you too, princess," Patton giggled again and snuggled up as close as he could.

Virgil satin complete shock. He hadn't realized what he'd been doing, why Patton wasnt eating or sleeping, why he had been so...it was all his fault. He had made Patton feel so bad about himself be refused to eat or sleep. He made him unable to see that he loved him and cared for him.

Had this really been weighing on Patton for that long? Had he really been so stressed about this, so upset?

And Roman was always there to comfort him. Who was to say Roman wouldnt replace him at any moment? Patton clearly trusted him alot. Roman had been using that tone and Patton just held him tighter. He didnt move away, he didnt get scared hearing it.

Was it because it wasnt directed at him or was it because..he trusted Roman and knew Roman wouldnt hurt him?

Virgil gripped his head in anger and closed his eyes. He'd really messed up. He needs to remember how Patton takes thing. A tone that would make a normal person listen made him so scared and upset it made him terrified to be near Virgil.

Roman woke up still holding Patton, still in the others boys bed. Patton was sound asleep still, so Roman just stayed holding him.
"Roman?" Pattons soft voice said after a few minutes. The blond looked up and smiled at Roman.

"Do you remember what happened last night?" Roman asked, brushing the wavy blind hair from his blue eyes.
"A little bit," Pattom leaned into the touch, loving it. Roman smiled and they got up. Virgil was sleeping on the couch.

"I should get going so Remus doesnt worry about me. Are you ok being here with him?" Roman asked anxiously.
"Yep! I'll be fine," Patton assured him. Roman hugged him and left. Patton went over and crawled under the blankets, snuggling up to Virgil. In his sleep, Virgil hugged him and made a soft please noise. Patton smiled and fell asleep in his arms.

Hope you enjoyed, have a great day/night
Love you all so much, bye bye