Sanders Sides oneshot book (pt2)(Requests CLOSED)

intrulogicality/patton angst/vent chapter

Just not super super happy
Vent chapter
Misgendered and deadnamed, transphobia

Trans! Patton, ftm

Patton was laying in bed talking to his boyfriend and relaxing. That day was a hard one. Remus was gone out of town and Logan was at school. Patton hurt almost all over. His back the worst from sleeping weird trying to stop the nausea and cramps from being worse.

He hadn't eaten anything and was stressed out. His brothers had misgendered and deadnamed him so many times, refusing to use his name and pronouns. He just wanted to cry, watching his show and talking to Remus. He missed them both so much. He missed hugging Logan and feeling safe in his arms.

He just wanted to snuggle up with them and sleep.

But his insecurities were telling him that they weren't doing anything because they didnt want to. But he just ignored it.

Of course those insecurities got worst when Logan refused to show him affection at all. He just wanted to hug him. To cuddle him.

Remus was still away and that was killing him, not able to see the one who would definatly give him cuddles if he asked.

It bothered him that he felt like this. And he hated that he was so needy, but he really wanted and missed that attention. But he felt like he was being too much, wanting too much and needing more then his boyfriends wanting to giving him.

He now laid in bed, missing hem so much and just wanting them to hug him, kiss him. Tell him they love him.

Was that too much to ask? Was a cuddle session, which was all he needed, too much? He just wanted to curl up in their arms and stay close. He kept picturing falling asleep in their arms and having them just hold him. He wanted to feel their hands on his thigh, touching him slowly. Feel them touch him and kiss him all over. Whisper the things they want to do to him. Call him all the nicknames and pet names that made his heart flutter and made him so happy.

Logan sometimes did and Remus did as much as he could while not being around. But Patton wanted more. But he felt selfish wanting more, because he knew they couldn't give it to him. But he just wanted it so so bad.

So he just laid in Logans hoodie and thought. He texted Remus, waiting for school to end so he could talk to Logan. He laid and imagined them holding him, pictured things they could do when Remus got back.

Wtf this was supposed to be all cute, but it turned very sad because my dumbass is feeling alot of feelings

But I hole you enjoyed and have a wonderful day/night, love you all so much, bye!
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