Running The World With You

Dead man walking

I get up from the bathroom floor. Crying won't help me. I don't know what will. Lucius is a monster. He makes me feel something, and then he rips me apart. That sweet Lucius in the library was a sweet man who had feelings. I was too stupid to fall for that.

Then again, there is a part of me that likes to think that Lucius was lying when he said he was just trying to get into my pants. That he does have a good side after all.

God, I really am stupid.

I get up and wipe my tears. There is no point in crying over someone who doesn't appreciate you.

I sit on the bed and put on an episode of criminal minds. Why can't Lucius be more like Spencer Reid. If only I was forced to marry Matthew Gray Gubler.

From the distance, I hear a faint female voice that isn't the queen. Hmm, I might as well investigate. I always wanted to be a detective.

I slowly walk out the door and to the bridge about the foyer. I duck down when I see Lucius and some blonde below me.

"Rachel, you cannot come here. I'm engaged, remember?" Lucius barks. I guess he didn't invite her here. Strange, as she's extremely beautiful.

"Oh but daddy, she could never fulfill like I can." Rachel whines. I cringe at the word daddy. She must be really hung up on him. She can have him.

"Get the fuck out of here. I don't know who let a dog like you in here but we are over Rachel. It was a few good fucks and that's it." Lucius says, pointing to the door. A tiny bit of hope washes through me, at least he won't cheat on me.

I can see her stamp her foot and walk out with tears in her eyes. I cannot believe someone is so worked up about an asshole like that.

I walk back into Lucius's room and turn off the TV. I want to facetime my friends. I can watch later.

After a few rings, they both pick up. They must be at Theo's house.

"Hey bitch! What's happening? I heard you were in Monaco!" Raina greets. I'm glad to hear her voice. Theo smiles and waves from behind her.

"Yeah, I am. It's not going super well, you know how he is. Anyway, what have you guys been up to?" I say. I really don't want to talk about Lucius right now.

"Oh, too bad. We're taking body shots and Theo was about to eat me out!" Raina squeals. What? Theo's eyes bulge out of his head.

"I'm kidding! Geez tough crowd. In reality we've just been hanging out and getting back in the swing of things." Raina says. I'm glad her and Theo aren't together. I don't know how that would go considering he recently confessed his feelings for me.

"H-how are his parents?" Theo stammers, brushing his hand on his neck. Why is he so nervous?

"His mom is really nice. His dad is... I don't want to talk about it." I respond. I really don't want to get into the sexist dad discussion.

"And how is he? Does he treat you right?" Theo asks. It's really cute how he's so worried about me.

"He's Lucius. Some good days some bad days." Raina murmurs something to Theo that I can't hear.

"Listen Amora, we gotta go. I think my mom wants me to go back home. Call us soon!" She says before hanging up the call. What the fuck? She never ends calls like that.

Oh well. I can't do anything if my friends in London are acting strange. I'll just go back to watching my show.

*****
I've been watching TV for a long time. I wish I could just run away from this and become someone I want to be. Not some trophy wife. I do get to help with politics, but Lucius's opinion always trumps my own. It's like I live in 1830.

Speak of the devil and he shall appear.

"Kitten, I have to go deal with something. I'll be back soon." Lucius says as he walks into the room to grab his suit jacket.

"Yeah, ok. Don't let the door hit you on the way out." I murmur. I know he can hear me, but I don't care.

"I know your mad at me. I'll be back soon." He lightly shuts the door behind him. I hate being here. I want to go home and never return. I miss my mother, my father, even the maids. I feel helpless.

I go downstairs and decide to eat something. I haven't eaten all day. I grab some toast and cheese and put them together in the toaster. The industrial style kitchen that the cooks use is completely empty.

I hear some light feet come in. Who's here? I flip around to see a little girl in a maid uniform looking up at me.

"Hi!" I exclaim. I love little girls.

"H-hi, a-are you-u the f-uture queen?" She stutters. Her cheeks flush as she waits for my answer.

"Yes, I am. And who are you?" I ask, putting my hands on my knees so I'm more in her level.

"V-ictoria. I t-think your really pretty." She says and twiddles her thumbs. Bless her heart.

"Thank you! You are beautiful as well." I compliment. Her cheeks blush and I get up to grab my grilled cheese from the toaster. I put it onto a paper plate.

"I n-need help. Me and m-my family being s-tuck here till d-dad give m-money." Her little doe eyes look up at me and I brush my hand through her black bob.

If Lucius has anything to do with this, he's a dead man walking.