Running The World With You

give up

3 days later...

I stare at Lucius, sleeping as usual. The heart monitor beeping as his breaths move up and down.

The death of my father is still fresh in my mind. He died because of me. If only I hadn't let those men into our room, my father wouldn't have died trying to find me.

Thinking about him insisting to help the team find us and dying from a bullet to the head makes me sob.

I've been a walking ghost. I just stare at Lucius, waiting for him to wake up. My mom brings me coffee and food, but I look terrible.

She's having a rough time. She loved my father deeply and she acts like a husk of herself.

Leo and his wife were sworn in as the rulers of Andorra a couple of weeks ago. The death of my father won't impact our country, but it will impact it's affairs. He was a vital part of our agreements.

Staying at the hospital in Siberia hasn't been easy. We desperately want to get back to Monaco, but we can't move Lucius.

Thinking back on all that I've been through, you would think I would have given up. Just thrown in the towel and quit being queen. However, Lucius doesn't have any siblings. If we did that, Monaco would elect a new royal family.

I can't be that selfish.

I wonder what Lucius will think when he wakes up. Will he still be in love with me? Has all this time apart changed his feelings for me?

I don't know. It's stupid to think like that, but I can't help it.

I sit next to him, gently rubbing my hand on his. His wedding ring is still on, and has a scratch on the surface. I run my finger over it.

I think it represents how strong he is. I'll ask him to not get it fixed. I like the way it looks.

I stare at his face. He is peacefully sleeping, like he could wake up at any moment. Which I suppose is true, but is unlikely. He may not wake up for another two days.

His messy brown hair is wild and unmanaged. His light stubble covers his face. I smirk at that. A whole month and that's all he can grow.

Though he may have been allowed to shave. I don't know what happened to him.

His defined jaw is relaxed. He's lost weight, but so have I. I only weight 105 pounds and I'm 5'7. I'm essentially a walking skeleton. Lucius looks thinner, but he's still muscular and bulky.

I notice movement in his eyes. He must be dreaming. I squeeze his hand.

Suddenly, his eyes flutter open. I gasp and stare into his bright blue eyes.

"Lucius!" I shout. My mom looks up from her book and runs over. He looks around, and then back at me,

"Amora, oh my god I missed you! Are you ok? Those fucking Siberians I'll kill them! I love you!" He groggily says and cups my face with his hands. I set them down. I don't want him to rip his IV out.

"I love you Lucius. You need to rest, ok? I'm fine!" I run my hand through his hair and give him a long kiss.

"I feel like I'm intruding. I'll go get the nurse." My mom laughs. I smile at her and she walks off.

I finally have Lucius back.

*****

1 week later...

Life in Monaco has been busy. As the rulers, Lucius and I almost never can catch a break. We were inaugurated officially two days ago and I've barely had time to sleep.

All this work has kept me from facing my fathers death. Lucius consoles me, but I never really had time to grieve.

I went to the funeral. My siblings and my mother were distraught. My mother has been staying in Monaco. She doesn't know what to do with herself.

Siberia has denied the claims but the United Nations is doing a full investigation. Hopefully we get justice.

"Kitten, why so deep in thought?" A husky voice says from across from me. We are going over some business with China.

"Oh nothing. I'm just so glad to be here with you."

"That reminds me. All of this time has given me time to think about what's really important.  I know we said we would wait on kids but I-"

"You want to have kids now?" I finish for him. He nods and side glances. Do I want kids now? I don't see why I don't. I love kids and this time away from Lucius has given me perspective.

"If you don't want to we won't I don't want to rush you."

"Let's try. I think I'm ready!" He smiles and lifts me up, wrapping me in a passionate kiss.

"I love you so much, Mrs. Balcray." He says, his hot breath fanning my lips.

"I love you too, Hubby." He cracks a smile and shakes his head. Cheesy names make me cringe and smile.

I'm sure you know what happened after that.

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Sorry for not updating for a while I've been really busy with helping my sister decide where she wants to go to college.

It's between Villanova and Brandeis if anyone cares haha. I think she'll choose Brandeis though!

Ok sorry if nobody cares but I don't like this chapter either! So sorry about it I'm going through a bit of a writers block.

Ciao!