Running The World With You

I'm so selfish

"I'm glad you came to come talk to me." Mrs. Higgins says while motioning for me to sit down. Last night with Lucius was a huge mistake and it was all my fault.

"Thank you for scheduling this appointment for me I've had a lot on my mind." I say and she nods. I fidget with the bell sleeves of my shirt.

"So, what's bothering you?" She asks. Boy, everything.

"Lucius. We... did something last night and I regret it." I explain. She nods and jots something down.

"I see. Did you want to do it at the time?" Yes, I did. That's the problem.

"Yes and that's why I'm so upset. I don't want to feel those things for him." I say. The thing that's really got me so worked up is what happened after. I cannot believe I told him I wanted it to be Theo instead. Then he went crazy and I can't exactly blame him.

"Did anything else happen?" Mrs. Higgins says while writing in her notebook.

"I told him there was someone else I wanted to have that experience with." I play with my skirt and look at the floor. This is embarrassing.

"How did he react?" Exactly like I thought he would. The name Theo just slipped out I didn't mean to tell him. His angry possessive side came out. He looked more angry then I'd ever seen him.

"Bad. Shaking with anger. Yelling. He's pretty possessive." She nods and jots something else down.

"How did that make you feel?" She asks.

"Like I was guilty of something." I mumble. She looks up at me and frowns. She adjusts her glasses.

"Hm, it seems like your relationship with you fiancé is toxic. I think you need to get out of it. Wanna get a fresh start?" Mrs. Higgins suggests. What? What is she referring to?

"Excuse me?" I ask. She smiles and puts her notebook on the table.

"Listen, I can get you out of here. You can live far away from here and leave your responsibilities. I know a few people. In exchange id just ask that you pay for my son to go to college." Mrs. Higgins explains. Leave everything? Start over? That sounds pretty good to me. I could start a new life in New York. I have always wanted to change the world, but maybe I can without marrying an asshole.

"Mrs. Higgins-"

"Call me Charlotte."

"Charlotte, I think that can be arranged. When can you get me out of here?" She smiles shakes my hand. I have nothing holding me back here. I love my family but I can't marry a guy like Lucius. If saving my future means getting away from Lucius I will do whatever it takes.

"I'll have to arrange a couple of favors and once your payment is in my bank account we can leave. I'll say tomorrow night."

It's settled. I'm getting out of this shithole.

****
I've been scrambling through my father's office trying to find the checkbook. I eventually find it and write out Charlotte Higgins and give her 200,000 dollars. That should be more than enough.

Shit, this is really happening.

I stuff it in my bra and walk out. I need to pack. A rush of excitement runs through me as I think of my new life. I'm taking along a half a million from my trust fund to pay for my life in New York. I'm about to go into Charlotte's office to give her the check when I hear footsteps.

"Hey Amora!" Leo says. I turn around and smile.

"Hey Leo! I was just dropping off some papers." Leo raises his eyebrow at me. Shit, he can tell I'm lying.

"Mhm. Hey, if you are going through something you can tell me. I'm your brother." He says. It's going to be hard to leave him.

"I know. Really, it's nothing. I was just stressed about the wedding so I went and visited Higgins." I smile at him and walk into the office. I look around and see Charlotte on the phone. She hasn't seen me yet.

"Yes, I need a first class ticket to New York. 2 works. We need maximum security. You know what, just make it a private jet." She talks into the phone. She must be arranging my flight.

"Yes, you know who I need to pilot. Things should go without a hitch. Get everyone off the plane you hear me?" She whisper yells. Hm, weird. Probably just for privacy.

I think she sees me and hangs up the phone. She smiles at me and takes the check from my hand.

"Thank you. My son will forever me indebted to you." She thanks. I'm glad I'm paying for someones education.

"Thanks for helping me." I say. She nods and I leave.

***
1 day later

I talked a lot at dinner. Lucius apparently was busy so he wasn't there. Even better. I got one last dinner with my family before I left. I wonder if they will find me. Probably not.

Tonight I'm leaving. Last nights dinner was oddly quiet and Lucius sat in the other end of the table from me. He must be really angry. Doesn't really matter to me. I won't have to deal with him anymore.

I finish packing and write out a note. I need to at leas to explain why I have left.

Dear family and Lucius,

I have left due to my relationship with Lucius. It has nothing to do with not wanting to be a princess it's just I cannot marry someone I don't respect. I wish you all the best. Please don't come looking for me I'm going to live how I've always wanted to. I wish you all the best. Lucius, I'm sorry for messing your chances of taking the throne up. Go marry that girl that is clearly obsessed with you. Family, I love each and one of you. It pains me to know I have to give you up to escape my own personal hell. I hope you find it in your hearts to forgive me for being so selfish.

                                              Yours,
                                                 Amora

I stare at my work and check the clock 1:30. I should probably get going. I leave the note in my bedside table and take all of my duffel bags. I just packed memories and my essentials. I'll buy a new wardrobe once I'm in New York.

I meet Charlotte outside and she's personally driving me to the airport. It's completely dark outside except for the streetlights.

We reach the launchpad and I see the small jet I'm going on. I get into and grab my bags. I hug her.

"Thank you. This means so much to me." I say.

"You have no idea how much this will help my son." Charlotte beams. I pull away and get into the plane. I like Charlotte. She reminds me of my mother.

The pilot closes the door and tells me he's taking off in five minutes. I have five minutes to decide if this is really what I want.

It is. I can't go back now. I can't be a queen if I have to marry the devil to do it.

I begin to cry when I think about my family. I love them so much but I have to leave. If I fall harder for Lucius I'll only get hurt.

I'm so selfish.

I feel the plane taking off and soon we are in the air. Goodbye old life.