secret love

youre all i need

                                    1 week later
                                friday, 11:30 pm

Ellens POV:
Me and Kate started staying at home again, we always used to sleep in our trailers together because we had such awkward filming times. I still cant get my mind off Patrick. It hurts so much to love someone, that you know you can never have. Even though hes sitting right there, right in front of you, you cant quite reach far enough to grab him. I know he loves his Wife, but damn, I love that man more than anyone could. "Hey El. You okay?" Kate said as she walked into my room and saw me zoned out, "Hi, yep im fine!" I said with a smile. I feel like a teenage girl obsessing over a boy, who has a girlfriend. Honestly i probably did that in highschool but that was a fever dream. "Thinking about him again?" Kate asked in a sad tone, "Mhhm." I said letting out a loud sigh. "You know him and Jill arent even talking? They are literally co-parenting in the same house. I talked to him yesterday. He said Jill wont let Talula talk to him when its her time to have her." Kate said trying to relieve me, "Are you serious? She wont let his own daughter talk to him?" I said surprised, "Nope. And they arent talking about ANYTHING unless its about Talula." Kate said, "Damn." I said, secretly happy that they werent talking, "You should text him! Meet up for coffee in the morning or something." Kate said excitedly, "Maybe i will." I said with a sneaky smile, "Goodnight El. Let me know what he says." She said with a smile, "Night K." I said. After she left, i rolled to the other side of my bed and grabbed my phone. It took me at least 5 minutes to open the messages app. And another 2 just to go to his contact. But I grew some balls, and did it.
E- Hi Pat, might be a bad time, but was wondering if you wanted to meet for coffee in the morning? I miss my favorite co-star.
P- I would love to Ellie. The usual coffee shop we go to on the corner?
E- Yes that one. 8am. Im excited! Sleep well!
P- Goodnight Ellie, sweet dreams.

Patricks POV:
Holy. Shit. I cannot believe she texted me, i was laying in bed thinking about her, and then my phone dinged. And guess who it was? Ellen. That girl doesnt even know how much i love her. I would give up everything for her. I think im gonna ask Jillian for a divorce, after this 30 days of course, but I just hate putting Tal through this. Shes so confused. I dont want to put myself or Talula through this. And since im nice, I guess i dont want to put Jill through this either. Ever since i laid eyes on Ellen, I havent been able to take them off her. Ive been in love with her for almost 3 years, and never told Jill anything. But to be fair, she cheated on me. I wish Ellen knew. I wish I could tell her how hard i fell for her and i havent been able to get up since. And i try, i try so hard to not get my hopes up with her because i know she doesnt feel the same, but its so hard. I open my phone to call Kate, "Hello?" Kate said answering the phone obviously sleeping, "Hi- Sorry, but Ellen asked me to coffee tomorrow morning! What do we even talk about? I feel like its gonna be awkward." I said, "Just be honest with her. Tell her whats going on at home." Kate said, "Okay. Thanks. Bye." I said quickly, "Thats all you needed?" She said questioning my sanity, "Yup. Go back to bed." I said laughing, "Gladly." She said hanging up the phone. It was already 12:15? I had been thinking about Ellen for an hour already, usually its even longer. Tomorrow will be great. I know it.

Ellens POV:
I fell asleep shortly after i texted Patrick, i had a dream about him, which was not out of the ordinary. But it was a weird one. We were married, had a Son that looked to be close to 3, and i was pregnant. Again. Was this some future mind reading shit? Whatever it was, it was amazing. I woke up at 7:15 so i could shower and get ready. I picked out this navy blue top that was flowy and loose, with black jeans. It was his favorite thing i wore. I curled my hair a bit but then brushed it out so it looked wavy and volumized, also his favorite. I grabbed my purse, walked out the front door and i was on my way. I was so nervous. Should i ask him about whats going on at home? Should i ask him about racing? I was so nervous i didnt know what to talk about. I drove for only 15 minutes and pulled up to our coffee shop on the corner. I saw he wasnt there yet so i went in and got us a table, "Table for 2." I said, "Right this way." The host said. As i sat down i saw his car drive by the window, he was going to park on the other side. After only a couple minutes he walked in with a huge smile on his face, "Patrick!" I said running up to him, "Hi El!" He said giving me a huge hug. God i didnt realize how much ive missed him. His smell, his clothes, his eyes, his everthing.

Patricks POV:
It felt so good to see her again. Ive missed everything about her. I couldnt help but hug her as tight as i could. "Should we sit down?" I asked laughing, "We shall." She said with a smile, "So how are you?" She asked me, "Could be better. But managing." I said with a smile, "Wanna talk about it?" She asked, She knew me so well. She knew when i needed to get something off my chest. "So me and Jill have decided that we're gonna sleep in different rooms, not talk to eachother, and take care of Talula on separate days. But god is it confusing Tal. Jill has been telling her not to talk to me. She wont even look at me. We have to do this for a month and we're only 1 week in. And if stuff doesnt get better, then we're getting a divorce." I said, "Oh god Patrick im so sorry to hear that. Is there anything i can do? If you need somewhere to stay our guest bedroom is always open to you." She said with a frown, i could tell she genuinely felt bad. "Thank you Ellie. Itll be okay, it might end in a divorce, but for me and Tal, itll be okay." I said with a smile, "Well ive sure missed you! Ive been thinking about you alot lately." She said with a smile, "Ive missed you too. So much." I said with a big smile, "You should come over tonight for drinks, itll just be me there. Kates going home to see her family." She said, "Maybe i will!" I said with a wink.

hey guys! hope you all had an amazing christmas/ whatever you celebrate. this chapter is kinda boring, but it gets better next chapter for sure! thank you all!! hope you are enjoying this story!!