secret love

all i want

Sunday, June 16th 9:37 am.
paris, france
                                       2006

Ellens POV:
I woke up to the sun blaring through the sheer curtains of our hotel room, we were both clothes-less and covered by the thin hotel bed sheet and blankets. "Goodmorning." I said brushing the hair off his forehead and giving him a kiss, "Mm goodmorning." He said pulling back for another kiss. I turned around and grabbed my phone off the nightstand, "Holy. Shit." I said, "What?" Patrick asked, "I have 1,000+ texts and many more from facebook." I said laughing under my breath, "Shit we shouldve told Shonda first." Patrick said regretting all his life decisions. "Oh fuck." I said, "Call her. Right now." Patrick said, I dialed shonda and it started ringing, whats the worst that could happen? We loose our jobs? Well that is pretty bad but- She answered they phone, "Heyy Shonda!" I said nervously, "Hi Ellen! Hows yours and Kates trip going?" Shonda said. Shit, they had told Shonda kate was going instead of Patrick so it wouldnt seem suspicious. "About that... Kate couldnt come, so Patrick did instead. And we've had a thing since march, and we just wanted to tell you that we're officially dating." I said, "Oh my god really Ellen? Why didnt you tell me sooner? This is Amazing news! Im so happy for you guys!" Shonda said, I felt a wave of relief come over me. "Thank you Shonda! We will be back to film in a couple of days!" I said, "Have the best time you 2!" Shonda said hanging up the phone, "Shes not mad?" Patrick asked with a smile, "Shes not mad!" I said smiling, "I think this calls for some sex after all that good news" He said with a wink, "Well, i think maybe we should eat something first so we're all energized" I said winking back. I called room service and ordered myself Chocolate chip Pancakes which were one of my favorite breakfast foods ever. And i got him waffles and bacon, one of his favorites also. His phone started ringing as he got a call from Kate, "Hey K! How are you?" He said answering the phone, "Well, Jill just dropped Talula off here and said, "im done. they can have her." And left, so im not sure what to do in this situation, "What? Ill be on the soonest flight back." Patrick said hanging up the phone, "Whats wrong?" I asked, "Jill just dropped off Talula to Kate and said, "im done. they can have her" and left. You can stay here, im gonna fly there, get her, fly back and we can have our last night together." He said, "Ugh shes such a- never mind, dont even get me started. Patrick, im coming with you." I said, "No El you dont have to." Patrick said, "Paddy i want to. Shes gonna be my stepdaughter, i need to be there for her and earn her trust. I wanna be a good mother figure to her. And it starts here. Im coming." I said.

Patricks POV:
Her saying that made me fall 100x times harder. I loved how much she cared for Talula and always tried to be the best version of herself infront of Tal to be a good role model, "Come on. Lets go." She said as she had already gotten both suitcases packed as i sat there daydreaming. She really wanted this. We got out of that hotel as fast as we could and got a taxi ride to the airport. She pulled out her phone and dialed Kates number as i looked over her shoulder, "Hey Kate. We're on our way. Can i talk to her?" Ellen said, "What? I thought you were staying?" I heard Kate say through the phone speaker, "No. I need to be there for her. I want to be there for her." Ellen said, "Here she is." Kate said, "Hey Tal!" Ellen said, i could here Talulas sniffles through the phone, it broke my heart knowing that her own mom caused this pain on her, "Hi." Talula said, "Me and your dad will be home with you soon okay honey? Just hang in there for a little bit. We'll be there soon Tal i promise." Ellen said as tears filled both of our eyes, its not even that this was an emotional situation, its the fact that her own mother would do that just because im with another woman. "Okay." Talula said, i could hear her crying through the phone, "Bye Tal. We love you so much always remember that." Ellen said hanging up the phone, I gave her a big hug and started crying into her shoulder. I hated hearing my 4 yr old daughter so sad. She shouldnt even have to deal with that. "Thank you." I said in Ellens ear, "I love you" She said back. We pulled up to the airport, grabbed our luggage and went in and found the soonest flight we could. "We could do the 1:30 flight and we would be home by 8 o'clock California time." Ellen said, "Lets do that." I said as i bought our tickets. We sat down on the airport chairs right by where we needed to board in 30 minutes, "Thank you for coming." I said to her holding her hand, "Thank you for letting me. I want to be there for you both you know that right?" Ellen said smiling, "I know. Youre the best, i dont know how i got so lucky with someone like you. I want to be with you for the rest of my life." I said giving her a kiss, "And i want to be with you, for the rest of mine." She said smiling. She leaned her head on my shoulder and i just rubbed her back. I needed her. I dont know how i lived any other day before this without her. Shes the light of my life and seriously rocks my world. "I love you so much, you know that right? I always have. Since the day i laid eyes on you. I havent been able to take them off you." I said smiling as i looked into her sparkly eyes, "And i love you. So much. I dont want to ever spend another day without you." She said smiling. We were called to board our flight, so we got up. And stood in line for another 20 minutes until we finally got into our seats. "What movie should we watch?" I asked her, "Sweet home Alabama." She said with a smile, "We watch this one weekly El." I said smiling, "I just love it so much." She said laughing. I hated watching myself, but if she liked it i liked it. We snuggled into eachother and watched the movie until she fell asleep on my shoulder. I grabbed a piece of paper to doodle on but i had nothing to do. So i decided to write her a letter that she could find later.

To: My Ellie
From: Patty                                                 06/16/06
Ellen,
You are my world. My everything. I love everything about you. You are probably the best thing thats ever happened to me and that is an understatement. Since the day i saw you in that audition room i fell in love. With your voice, your eyes, your heart, your everything. I love the little things, when we sit on the couch and watch our favorite movies and you let me play with your hair. Or when i get to wake up to you by my side every morning. I love the way that you care for my daughter, and i know she loves you probably as much as i do. Ive loved every second of being with you since the moment we started filming the first episode of the TV show that made this all happen. Ive known since day one that you are my soulmate. My twin flame. I cannot imagine life without you. Your adorable 'flaws' are what make me so happy, even though theres no flaw about you. I cant wait to make you Ellen Dempsey someday. Give it 5 yrs, we'll have a couple of our own kids running around and maybe a dog, a house and still be working on the best show ever. Our life will be perfect. But i have one remaining question for you. Will you, Ellen Kathleen Pompeo, marry me?
I couldnt break the smile i had on my face the whole time i wrote it. I was so speechless i didnt even know what to say about her because everything is extremely perfect. I was gonna give this to her on August 13th, the exact day we first met. I was gonna take her to "our spot" a peaceful waterfall by malibu beach, and i was gonna give her that letter and have her read it out loud. And then give her the ring. I couldnt wait. 2 more months.

hey guys. kind of a wack chapter?? but patricks planning to propose??! anyway i hope you guys enjoyed this and this story is definitely going good places!! i have an idea for another story too but i just get too crazy with these storys so idk if ill start it or not. thank you all so much!!