secret love

where do you go with your broken heart

     {time jump 3 weeks} (random date i made up)
                              april 30th, 2006
                                      9:30pm

Patricks POV:
"I want to continue to do this. I think we can fix us!" Jillian begged, "Jillian, i cant do this anymore. I really cant. Its mine, and my daughters, best interest at heart that we get a divorce." I said, i knew she wasnt having it. I could see her getting pissed, "Patrick. Youre not listening-" Jillian said before i cut her off, "Oh, i am listening. You didnt listen when you made vows and promised not to cheat on me and now here we are! Im not gonna tolerate it, we're getting a divorce. Papers will be delivered to you tomorrow morning." I said getting mad, All she did was put her heads in her hands and breathe deeply, "Im gonna go, with Tal. You can figure yourself out, and then you can sign the papers tomorrow." I said, I went upstairs to grab my sleeping daughter. I felt so bad dragging her out of bed but i had to go. I had been seeing Ellen for about a month now, i saw her 2-3 times a week. I knew i could go to her house with Tal. I took Talula downstairs wrapped up in a blanket and put her in the car, Jill was still sitting there in the same position. I went back inside to grab my phone and call Ellen. I got back in my car, and started driving to Ellens, "Hey El." I said happily as she answered the phone, "Hi! How are you?" She asked, "Eh, could be better. I dont mean to be a bother, but can me and Tal come stay the night?" I asked, "Oh of course. I'd love it. So will Kate." She said, "Thank you. See you in a little bit." I said hanging up the phone. I knew Ellen always had my back. As we pulled into Ellens driveway, i saw Tal waking up. Great, now i had to explain. "Hey Tal honey, we're gonna stay the night at Ellies and Auntie Kates okay?" I said looking in my rearview mirror, "Okay." She said calmly, i think she was happy to get away from Jill. Shes too controlling and even my 4yr old can see it.

Ellens POV:
I went outside to help him as soon as i saw him in the driveway, I went to Talulas door and carried her in, "Hey Tal. Sorry to wake you. Wanna lay in my bed?" I asked her as she was in and out of sleep in my arms, "Yea." She said and the she layed her head on my shoulder. I brought her inside and tucked her into my bed, then i went back out to see Patrick. "Hey." I said giving him a hug, "Hi." He said giving me a kiss on the cheek. "Wanna talk about it?" I asked as he sat on the couch. "Im just so drained. So exhausted. I cant keep putting Talula through this. I know it doesnt seem hard from the outside, but it is. I hate living with someone that i hate so much. And i hate her because of what she did. And i cant stand to see Talula being scared of anything she does because Jill is too controlling." He said as he broke down in tears, "I need to divorce her." He said wiping his tears. All i did was sit down next to him and hug him. Thats all i could do. Thats all he needed. Eventually, i saw him getting tired. So we went to the guest bed. "Its okay you can lay down." I said as he hesitantly sat on the bed, "What am i gonna do. With Tal, with my stuff. With everything?" He asked, "Well, you can move in with me. We can put your stuff in storage until we get a place of our own." I said *We? We? What are you thinking Ellen! You guys arent getting a 'place.'* I thought to myself, "That would be nice" He said as he pulled back the covers and layed down. He wrapped his arms around me and i ran my fingers through his hair. It helped him fall asleep fastest. I used to do it at the trailer and he would fall asleep within seconds. As soon as i knew he was asleep, i went all the way down the hall to Kates room. I knew she was still up, that woman had a crazy sleep schedule. "Hey Kate, dont make too much of a ruckus in this morning because Patrick and Talula are here." I said as i closed her door behind me and sat on the end of her bed, "Okay. Is he okay?" Kate asked, "Hes just exhausted of his situation right now. He told me but i could just tell in his voice over the phone that him and Jill had been fighting. Shes getting the divorce papers tomorrow." I said, i felt so bad for him i really could cry. I just might. "What? Theyre getting divorced?" She asked, "Yea. And if its okay theyre gonna move in here." I said, "Oh of course thats fine. I love having them here. Tal says im her best friend." Kate said laughing, "What? She told me i was her bestfriend." I said with a smile, "Guess she lied." Kate said letting out her little giggle. I left Kates room and went back to bed with Patrick. I crawled back into his arms and my hands found his hair again. But i couldnt sleep. All i could do was think, think about our future. A nice house, maybe we'd build it, 2 or 3 more kids 2 boys and a girl, i wanted Tal to have siblings, maybe a dog, Greys still going strong and our relationship would be better than ever. We would get married, go on our honeymoon and life would be amazing. What would everyone think? Would everyone think i was his "Dirty Mistress"?, i know the public will have something to say. Good thing we havent made anything public.

Patricks POV:
I woke up at like 2am, Ellen was sleeping beside me, It was perfect. Im not sure why i woke up but i did wake up with the woman i loved beside me. My dreams had came true. I was so thankful for her, she kept my world spinning. If it wasnt for her, i probably wouldve dropped dead by now. The last month of having a "thing" with her has been the best of my life. She was my light. She was one of the only things that still made me happy. I think not filming has really been taking a toll on me, not seeing my friends, not seeing Ellie everyday. God i wanted to marry this woman. Tomorrow after Jill signs, i will finally be free. Itll be documented. And then we will find a schedule for Tal. It will all be fine. "You okay?" Ellen asked as she noticed i was awake, "Yes, go back to bed. Im fine." I said giving her a kiss on the forehead.

hey guys how have you all been? heres the new chapter, another one will be out later tonight because i might not be able to do one tomorrow night but we will see! thank you so much for all the love!