Me Llamo Tokio (My Name Is Tokyo) - A Money Heist Prequel

Chapter 26 - Dancing With Our Hands Tied

His hands are touching my body gently as the warm water is pouring down on me from the shower.
I breathe in deeply and exhale with a sigh, trying hardly to find a way to regain my old rhythm.
After he carried me inside, Juan insisted that I should have a warm bath. Probably, he was worried that I'll catch a cold. I agreed too, not because I was afraid of the cold, but the fact that if things will keep happening to me I'll become the burden that I always wanted to avoid being.
He washes my hair too, using a few drops from the perfumed oil that Tatiana gave us. Then, his hands go lower, on my neck and down my back.
I want to smile, but when I try to do it, a wave of tears decides that it's time to leave my eyes.
He rinses one of his hands swiftly, with some water from the shower, then he wipes away my tears with his clean hand.
I look up to find his beautiful green eyes looking at me a bit concerned.
"I'm sorry." I mutter.
"No, don't be." Juan's voice is having a hint of guilt in it. "It's all my fault. I'm the one who should apologize."
"Juan, you wanted to do something good. Unimaginably amazing I can say. But, the way you did it..." I really want to clarify everything with him because he doesn't deserve to live in the unknown. "Well, for me, even if your intentions were beyond good, you did it through a lie. And that shit hurt me like hell."
"I'm so sorry." his apology is genuine. "I really wanted it to be a surprise for you. In my head there wasn't any scenario in which my idea could've hurt you, and I'm really sorry for my idiocy of not thinking more."
"It's okay, Juan. I know. All you thought about was good. You were well-intentioned." I say, trying to reassure him again about the entire thing, as I didn't want him to lose his trust in himself, because I know how hard it is to gain it back. "The only thing that affected me really bad is that you wanted to do it while lying to me. And, for a person like me, this hurt more than you can imagine. I've been lied and manipulated through lies almost my entire life. I ran away from home to escape the falsity, so please, don't you ever try to do something good while using a thing that hurt me really bad in the past."
"I regret everything." he says in a lowered tone. "All I wanted to show you was that I love you more and that I want us to get to the next level. I wish I could do something to compensate the damage."
"Then come here." I say splashing the water.
He laughs, but starts unbuttoning his shirt.
"Faster, faster." I laugh, sprinkling some water on him with my fingers.
Juan was having this superpower and, I don't know how it was really working, but I could never stay upset on him for too long.
He gets in the tub, his naked body glueing to mine instantly. I let my head rest on his shoulder as I breathe in his musk and citruses scent. I think it's even more accentuated by the water, as I feel it impregnating in my memory better.
When our lips unite while the shower was on above us, I can't stop myself from thinking about the kiss that we had a while ago, in the rain. Only this one was better, filled with joy and relief.
"How are you feeling?" Juan asks while holding me tightly in his arms.
"I'm good." I whisper.
I try to shoo away the other small reason that wasn't leaving me be. The past trauma that was somehow related even with what happened today too. I know I promised him that I'll talk about it, only I wasn't even ready to think of it yet, as I was feeling the guilt trying to sneak in my mind and take over again.
"Tell me that we're going somewhere tonight." I say, trying to give something better to my mind to cling on.
He looks at me seriously, and I feel how his gaze is almost penetrating me, like he was trying to figure out whether I was sane enough or not to take me out of our hideout tonight.
"Well..." he concludes after a while. "I think we can go do the robbery that was planned for tomorrow."
"Mhmm." I whisper while getting closer to him. "That's what I think too."
That was enough for my mind to get out of the black hole where it was about to fall.
"And what are we robbing, mi amor*?" I ask, whispering the words on his lips.
"A pawnshop." he replies shortly, then he catches my lip with his teeth. "You'll like it."
We kiss deeply, our bodies following the rhythm of our lips in something that I always called a dance of their own.
"And why you think I'll like this so much?" I ask between kisses.
"Because it includes something that you love to do." he replies smiling.
"Something like what?" I'm really curious about his answer, because assuming he knows me well enough that he can say what I like to do or not was quite daring.
"Intimidating people." he replies then he goes on with the kiss.
Damn, he really knew me. I'm pleasantly surprised by his capacity to read me, and I decide that he deserves my full forgiveness for everything that happened.
"I forgive you." I say. "Let's start new. No diamond, no nothing."
"Thank you." I can feel the relief in his voice. "I promise I'll do my best to make you happy."
"Careful with your promises, Juan, because you'll have to keep them." I laugh.
"I swear then." the happiness is visible on his face. "I swear, so that I can be tied up for good."
"Juan." I'm trying so hard not to burst into laughter. "You have no idea whom you're tying your life to. Let's be honest, I'm quite crazy."
He laughs while hugging me tightly, then he kisses the top of my head.
"Silene, I don't know how you see yourself, but for me you're perfect." he says proudly.
"Then, you're definitely deranged." I laugh.
And, that was it. We kissed and made peace for good, then we went on to other things while the water was still warm and we had time.