Me Llamo Tokio (My Name Is Tokyo) - A Money Heist Prequel

Chapter 70 - One Last Robbery

"Fuck this shit!" This is the expression that defines best how I feel starting from yesterday.
Ever since we arrived in Madrid, an ambush of things took us by surprise. And, the first shock was when we arrived home and I checked my phone that was left there ever since that night when I went to the casino. It was filled with texts from my mother. Firstly, she was asking me why I don't answer her, that she was worried and to call her when I see the messages. But, a few texts later, things degenerated dramatically. She was telling me: "I talked to the police and you're one of the suspects in the case with the hotel. You lied to me regarding the entire job story. Call me right now until I'll offer them more details about you! You're in big trouble!" Of course I am. How else my mom would've dealt with the situation? Because choosing between protecting me and showing off to the police, she'll always go for the second variant. Unlike all the normal mothers in the world, mine would've done anything to see me punished for my actions and she to become the hero even if that implied putting her only child in jail.
"You have to call her," Juan said concerned. "It's the only way you can try to fix things up, otherwise she'll talk to them and it's the last thing we want."
He was right.
And here I am, at a public phone so that I won't be tracked if the police is already there, dialing my mom's number.
"Hello?" She answers almost immediately, like she was waiting to get this call for a while.
"Hi, mom, it's me," I say trying to calm down the violet shaking that's taking over my body and try to look at Juan who's waiting for me in the car.
"Silene!" She exclaims and I'm quite shocked to find that there's no angriness in her voice. Well, not yet. "How are you? What's going on?"
"I'm alright, don't worry," I try to assure her. "I've seen your messages. I was in Andalusia for a while with some friends."
I hope she'd buy this lie, because I can't really tell her the truth.
"Silene..." Apparently, it seems like she doesn't. "Give me a decent reason why not to talk with the police. I know you're implied. I talked to my superior at the hotel, there was no job offer, nothing. You lied to me."
"Mom," I start trying to find my words while I feel my feet metamorphosing into jelly. "I don't have a reason. Not a decent one, anyway. But, I'll tell you the truth..."
"Yes?" She sounds really unconvinced and the hints of anger are subtly coming back to her tone.
"I'm happy." I decided that the best thing I can do right now is tell the truth. "I'm finally happy. I found my happiness and..."
"That boy you were with that night?" There's no annoyance in her tone anymore, just a loud sigh.
"Yes," I reply.
"And what are you gonna do?" Her question is simple without any reproaches behind, yet I can't give her an answer. "You're a robber now? That's what you do? You ruin other people's lives and..."
"No," I interrupt her. "Nothing like that. I only get from the rich."
There's nothing but another loud sigh coming from the phone.
"Mom, remember when I was young," I try to touch the only sensitive point that she has, "and you once told me that you'd kill for me."
"I remember," she says plainly.
"It's my turn to pay you back for the fact that you took care of me, let me do this," it's my turn to sigh, "my way."
"Silene, this is wrong and you should please get yourself a job, go back to singing, do whatever you want, but not this. I care about you. I'm not perfect, I did wrong to you so many times before, but please don't do this to me, because I can't resist to see you in jail or... worse."
"Mom, listen to me." I try to calm her. "I'm not doing anything dangerous. I'm begging you, please, don't talk to the police, let me help you, I can send you money."
This is the moment when tears of despair are running down my cheeks freely. I have no idea how to convince her and talking to her hurts me way more than I thought it's possible.
"Please," I say one last time.
"I'll give you a chance, but you'll have to meet me, talk to me, look me in the eyes and promise me you'll be okay." She's crying too on the other end of the line. "I just want to see you one more time at least, please."
"Okay," I say. "I'll call you in a few days, I swear. And we'll meet someplace around the house."
"Alright," she sounds really happy. "Thank you!"
"Thank you, too," I reply trying to control my voice. "I'll call you then."
"Wait, wait," she sounds like she's about to say something really important.
"Yes?" I ask a bit confused.
"Does he loves you?" Out of all the questions this is the one I was expecting the least.
"Yes," I say while looking at the love of my life patiently waiting for me. "We love each other like crazy."
"Just like me and your father," she says and I can feel the smile on her face. "Try to be careful and not end up like me."
"What's with my father?" I ask almost desperate.
My mother never talked about him. All the times I asked about my father she was instantly getting angry, screaming at me and calling him names.
"Nothing," she replies harshly like she realized she said too much.
"Mom, please, I need to know," I beg her.
"When we'll meet," she sounds like her soul was suddenly filled with melancholy. "I'll tell you when you'll decide to see me, I swear."
"Thank you," I say. "For everything."
"Silene, please take care." She's not faking anything, for the first time in her life, she's really worried for me.
"I will, you too," comes my answer.
"I love you," my mom says.
"Bye, mom." I can't lie to her, at least not with this.
I hang up without waiting to hear if she has anything left to say. This was traumatic enough for a day. Now, the only thing that gives me power to be able to make a call to her again is the promise that she'll finally tell me about who my father was. A thing that I wanted to know for as long as I was aware what the word father meant.
"How are you?" Juan asks when I get to the car. "Are you okay?"
"Just take me back home," I say trying to hide my eyes filled with tears. "I can't talk right now."