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{9:19 am}
the next morning..

i wake up sore, and i look over and i'm in an empty bed.

i get up and get inside the shower, and wash my body and hair.

i get out pamper myself, then i get dressed into some jeans and a sweatshirt.

i walk downstairs, and i go to find mike.

i walk downstairs, and there is breakfast sitting on the counter, with my name on it.

i leave it and go to go mike.

i enter his office, and i see he has a meeting.

all the boys including mar are sitting down, and looking at me.

"yes princess?" mike asks looking at me.

i go up to him, and whisper in his ear, " i need 50 dollars."

he looks at me, and shakes his head 'no.'

"why not?" i ask. "what do you need it for baby..?". he asks me.

"i need a pill.." i whisper not looking at him.

he grabs my jaw making me look at him.

" but i thought you wanted to have fun because you were bored, remember..." he smirks.

"i wasn't though.." i smile at him, but it soon fades away.

" so you don't want to have another baby.." he says like he's sad.

"i do..i'm just scared... of us.." i confess to him.

he stands up and looks at the guys.

"we will continue, around one, yeah?"

they all nod their heads and leave out the room.

mike sits me on the table, and looks at me while he sits back down.

"tell me why you're scared.." he starts rubbing my thighs.

"i don't want to be hurt again mike. you hurt me when i could've had a miscarriage. i don't want to stress like i did before." i tell him.

i started looking around because i could feel the tears coming down.

i wipe them before they have a chance to drop, and sigh.

"look at me." he says. i look at him.

" i will never ever hurt you like i did before, that's the reason i've been fighting for you for so long."

"you mean the world to me, and you brought my first son into the world and i want you to be the only one."

"what do you think the whole point of you staying with me if for?! i'm trying to marry you, and finally call you mrs. chong."

"are you serious? i ask him

"yes princess, i want to have my family with you.. i love you okay. i want to be bonnie and clyde with you.." he starts crying.