Falling In Love To A Womanizer | Ongoing

CHAPTER 2

Dumaan ang mga araw at linggo  ngunit nawawalan na ako ng pag-asang mahanap ang babaeng 'yon. I only knew her name but I didn't know her last name. I already tried searching her name online though and I don't understand myself of why the hell am I doing this crazy things. One more thing is hindi ko alam kung saan siya nagtatrabaho kaya inaabangan ko nalang siya sa parking lot kung saan ko siya unang nakita  maging sa coffee shop ay palagi akong pumupunta. To hell with me. I just don't understand myself, maybe just maybe I was challenged by her at hindi ako matatahimik kapag hindi ko siya nakita ulit, pakiramdam ko natapakan yong pride ko. Lantaran ba naman akong ayawan, tsk. No one dare to do that.

Ano bang nangyayari sakin at nababaliw ako? Tsk, hindi ko rin matukoy kung bakit gusto ko siyang makita gayong sandali lamang kaming nakapag-usap and what worst is that mukhang ayaw na ayaw niya sakin. Mukha yatang napipikon siya sa pinagsasabi ko, hindi gumana yong mga linya ko.

Well, sino namang matinong babaeng papatol sa isang katulad kong  womanizer? I'm not saying na hindi matino ang mga babaeng na aattach sakin pero they're just like me. Someone who have the same intention and purpose like mine and that is 'ITS ONLY A FLING'.

Hindi ma justify ang salitang 'Babae sila kaya bihirang magloko' because all is well girls and boys are the same. That is why I don't like commitment. I am afraid being committed because that's how I perceive love. If you love, you are committed if you are committed you are obliged to be good. You are obliged to do better for someone even though it's not what you want.

This is my defense mechanism. Call it absurd, but this is me. This is my life, my rule, my decision. It's ok to be like this, iwas sakit and iwas dramas. I enjoyed this kind of life but when the time comes when I will fall in love I will not against with it.

Ngayon mukha akong tangang naghahanap sa babaeng 'yon at gusto kong murahin ang sarili ko for doing this. Marahil ay nachallenge ako sa kanya dahil sa kauna-unahang pagkakataon may babaeng sinigawan ako, langya ang sadista pa at ang bigat ng kamay, tinawag akong tanga at mukhang hindi tinatablan ng kagwapuhan ko!

"Hey kuya! Pwede pumasok?"-rinig kong sigaw galing sa labas ng kwarto ko. It was Emily, my younger sister. She's now turning 16 but still I treated her as my little sister, my princess and my baby.

"Come on in!"- sagot ko habang naglalaro ng ML.

"Kuyaaaaaaaaa! Wahhh, where are you these past few days? Ba't palagi kang wala sa bahay?!"- sigaw nito nang siya ay makapasok. Ang problema ng kapatid ko palaging nagsisigaw ang tinis pa naman ng boses but I still love her voice though. Let her sing and you'll know.

"May pinagkakaabalahan lang si kuya Princess."- sabi ko habang naglalaro parin. "Shit!"-bulong ko.

"Ano? Girls? Kuya naman ehh! I don't like them, they're so maarte and clingy!"- nagpapadyak nitong sabi. Shot, I knew it. Hahahaha, ni isa wala itong nagustuhan sa kanila kaya after nila pumunta dito sa bahay wala na goodbye. Minsan nga may umiyak pa dahil nirerealtalk ng kapatid ko.

"I don't like them either Princess, don't worry you know me."

"Then why are you keep on dating them!?"

"You won't understand if I tell you."

"Then let me understand!"-nawawalan na ng pasensyang sabi niya.

"Princess, naglalaro si Kuya. Matatalo na ako ohhh. Wait lang."

"Sabi ko naman kasi sayo si ate ganda nalang ligawan mo!"- sabi niya tsaka pabagsak na humiga sa kama. What a childish act baby.