Twist of Fate

CHAPTER 16

PHOENIX

"Seriously?" I asked her twice.

She just nodded and gave me the best smile I'd love to ogle my whole life. She turned around and faced the city lights once again. I stared at her. I couldn't help but to smile and hugged her once again.

This is amazing..

I was still surprised of what she said. Im very surprised the whole freaking day!

There's so much that had happened today. Especially now.

I remember earlier.. i was so disappointed of myself with all the words i fired to her. My ties loosen up. I didn't get to guard myself like I before.

I was so guilty. It's way too late for me to take back the words i said to her. It's not part of my plan. I almost confessed to her! For pete's sake!

I admit it.. i was taken over by my anger. And I tried to remain calm.. yeah i did. But I failed to suppress all the words I've been dying to say to her.

I understand what she's trying to say. She wants to settle things on her own. Because she's an independent person. Well.. not really when it comes to taking care of herself. But with putting things in right places.. she's excellent in that matter.

But it hits different to me. She's my woman. And I won't let her go through those circles. She's gonna be facing a lot of judgements and questions when she go home. I know that will happen. And I want to be on her side when that happens. That's all i wanted. Whatever that circumstances is.. i want to be on her side.

But she miss interpreted those. That we end up arguing. Again.

I should've remained silent. I shouldn't have said those words to her. I shouldn't have make her feel worst. I should've been more composed.

That was all i am thinking when she suddenly appeared on my sight in the library.

And that happened. That was the best. And I only feel that way on her. And that made me say to myself. That I'm really keeping her. I'm giving her the best of all best. I'm giving her.. myself.

This woman is just so amazing. I can't believe I'm holding her in my arms now. This is beyond euphoric.

"Phoenix.." she suddenly spoke.

I inhaled her hair's scent and pulled her closer. "Hmm?"

"What makes you so sure about marrying me? Nag tataka lang ako. Bakit parang ang ganon ka nalang kadesidido na magpakasal saakin?" She glanced at me. "At yan.. yang mga kilos mo. Why is that you're so caring? I get that I need some care because I am pregnant.. pero.. yung mga pag halik mo. Pag lapit lapit mo saakin. Hindi naman kailangan yon noon pero bakit mo ginagawa? Do you have reasons? O sadyang nilalandi mo lang ako noon?"

She continuously fired the questions to me. I took a heavy sighed and rested my head on her's. This talk is getting deeper.

She's confused and she has many questions about many things that's happening between us. And i get her.. because sometimes I also feel that way.

"Why suddenly asking me, michin?"

She shrugged. "It just came in my mind. Since nandito narin naman tayo sa sintwasyon na to. Bakit hindi natin subukan diba? Umpisahan natin sa pag kialala sa isat-isa. By asking questions diba?"

She got a point. Why don't we try knowing each other? This is a good opportunity. Might as well cooperate with her..

"I don't know either.. i just think that's the right thing to do? I am just doing with what my mind tells me to.. i am confused too, michin. Because.." I shook my head. "Because I haven't experienced getting into a serious relationship, michin.. and to be honest. I know nothing about this. So i just do what I think is a must."