RECKLESS IN INK (BOOK TWO)

B7/C15

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⚠ DRUG USE ⚠

Nova

I woke up jumpy, only to realise I was in the hospital. My mouth was dry and my head was pounding with a headache but I had the urge... I was craving a high, I was craving the freedom. I just wanted to escape the hurt, my mind, everything! "Hey... you're okay. You're at the hospital. Do you remember anything?" my eyes snapped to the right side of my bed, I pulled my hand out of his hands. 

"How did I get here?" Ignoring his questions. 

"You overdosed on the shit you took," Wolf said, I looked away, for months I've hated myself. The way I looked, the way I felt. It was like I wasn't enough for anyone. I spent hours and hours going over what I could have done but it all came back to Wolf... "Are you going to tell me why?" 

"You know why" I mumbled to him. 

He sighed and from the corner of my eye, I saw him run his hand through his hair. "I'm sorry Nova, I know it's not going to make what I said better but I am. When you left I thought about what happened, I was wrong. I shouldn't have called you that. Echo was like an older brother to me and hearing about his death it was like someone ripped out my heart." I looked over at him as he looked down at the floor. 

"He taught me things I wish my father would have. For months I was angry with myself, for many things but mostly because I hurt you." He said before looking at me. "Seeing your eyes roll in the back of your head it made me realise I don't want to lose you... you probably won't trust me now but.."

"Your right I don't trust you... I don't know why I ever thought you were different. You are just the same as the rest of the guys I've dated and only want one thing" I told him, I shook my head. 

"Hmm if that was so then wouldn't I have fucked you by now?" He asked me as he leaned back in the chair he was sitting in, raising an eyebrow.

"Just get out" I mumbled, knowing he won the argument he chuckles. 

"If you hate me now you're going to hate me even more," he said after a while of silence, I looked down at my hands. "I'm going to put you into rehab." 

"No" I snapped. 

"I don't care, I'm not losing you as well"

"You don't know shit about me, Wolf! You don't know a fucking thing! Do you think it's going to be easy? Well, your fucking wrong! Why don't you just do us all a favour and leave." I growled at him. 

"I'm not leaving Nova" he shook his head no. 

"Fine" I pressed the nurse button and waited until a nurse walked in "Can you remove this man" 

"I'm sorry?" She asked. 

"Can you remove this man, I don't want him in here?" I told her again. 

"But isn't he your fiancé?" She looked confused. I snapped my eyes to Wolf's and glared. 

"Yes... fiancé" I said through my teeth. "Can you get me a doctor so I can get out of here?" I asked her, she nodded her head and left. "You have got some nerve," I mumbled under my breath. 

After an hour of arguing with the doctor, I signed myself out against the doctor's orders and grabbed my bag. I made my way down the hall and I knew Wolf was following me, I could hear his boots hit the floor. The cravings had gotten worse over time and I was sweating badly before I even got out of the hospital. I kept fidgeting, it was all getting too much and I knew I needed more supply. 

But before I could walk out of the parking lot of the hospital Wolf stood in my way. "Get out of my way, Wolf," I growled.

"No, get on the bike," he said pointing to it behind me. 

"No" I went to walk past him towards the taxis. When I got to a car I stopped for a moment, I looked over my shoulder to see Wolf standing there. I saw the sadness in his eyes, making me tear up but I was stubborn. I got into the car and told the taxi driver where I wanted to go. As the driver drove past Wolf I couldn't look at him again, I was trying to be strong because I knew it wouldn't take me long before I fell for him again.

Once I was home, I threw my bag onto the couch and took a seat. I pulled out the little bag and threw it onto the coffee table. I just sat there and stared at it, my hands were running through my hair over and over again. My knee was bouncing and my skin started to itch. I wiped my cheek rid of the fallen tear, I was nothing but an addict. I wasn't good for anything, I hated my life. I didn't want to help myself. I just wanted to escape the world so I pulled out my black bag and took out all the things I needed to make this high happen. 

When I was done, I leaned back on the couch and closed my eyes. The heroine was working the moment it went into my system. I would feel relief until I needed more.

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