RECKLESS IN INK (BOOK TWO)

B7/C13

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⚠ DRUG USE ⚠

6 MONTHS LATER

Nova

I looked into the mirror and wiped my nose, making sure there was no white powder on it before I pushed off the counter. I grabbed my mask before I walked out of the dressing room following behind Quinn as our heels clicked on the wooden floorboards. I pulled on my mask when Quinn and I took place on stage as Tainted Love by Marilyn Manson started to play. 

For six long months, I worked my ass off. Whether it was cleaning up dead bodies or swinging my ass in front of men. My debt was slowly getting smaller but I still had heaps to pay. It had been six months since I saw Wolf in the hospital, I didn't even go to AA meetings anymore. Why bother when I was using again? For about a month I was getting phone calls from Wolf but not once did I call him back.

To be honest, at first, I was upset with him for a while. Telling me that I didn't belong in his world made me feel like a fool. I kissed him and told him things I didn't like to talk about and he turns around and says get out. Like I said for a while I was upset but now? I don't know how I felt about him... He lost my trust before we even were a thing. If he walked up to me in the street and apologised for how he acted, I would probably walk away.

So I've stayed away from the places he would go. When he would walk in through the door of the strip club I would take my break. Hearing the words that came out of his mouth hurt me... and he knew it. 

When the song was over Quinn remained on stage but I walked off, I pulled off my mask and went to the dressing room where all the other girls were getting ready. I grabbed a bottle of water and took a sip before changing into a different outfit. 

"Nova!" My boss called out, I looked over at him as he waved me over. 

"Yeah?" I said when I got to him. 

"You're in the private room," he said before handing out a few baggies to the other girls. 

"No im on the stage again" 

"Sorry love but this guy asked specifically for you." He saw me look away, biting my lip "Look Nova, just shake your ass for a bit and get out, that's all" he said, I nodded my head and turned on my heel to get ready. 

Once I was ready my boss led me to the room and I slowly stepped inside with my mask on before my boss closed the door. The room was glowing red with the lights dimmed. I could see the guy sitting on the chair in the middle of the room facing away from the entrance. The music slowly began as I walked forward. As I walked around the guy I realised it, someone, I was hoping I wouldn't see but I tried to make it not show. 

As the music played I did my thing, I swung my hips in front of him. I could feel the heat from his stare as I moved but once the music stopped so did I. I was making my way to the door when he spoke. "I'm sorry Nova... I didn't mean to say those words." 

I let my head hang down and I didn't say a word as my hand was on the door mob. "Please can we talk about this?" Wolf said, his voice sounded so much closer than it was before. 

"You said what you needed to say" I mumbled to him. 

"No... Nova, I only said that because I was angry... I was angry that I lost a brother and I didn't mean to take it out on you.."

"But you did!" I yelled, turning on my heels and walked right up to him. "You meant everything you said. You don't care about anyone but yourself!" I said, poking him in the chest. 

"Nova please" 

"Please what? Give you another dance? Shake my ass in your face? What the hell do you want, Wolf?" I yelled again. 

"Damn it, Nova, can you just stop!" He said reaching up and ran his hand through his hair. 

"Why should I stop? Isn't that what you want? A whore? Isn't that why you paid for me" 

"I paid for you because you wouldn't answer my phone calls or your front door. It was like you've been avoiding me" 

"Yeah because you said to leave. You said I shouldn't be in your life, remember? Don't remember.. okay it was right before you called me a druggy stripper." I said pushing him back "you want a druggy stripper well you got one baby" I snapped, I pulled out a little baggie that I kept in my top piece, I tipped it onto the table.

"What are you doing?" Wolf asked me, he tried to grab my arm but I pulled away from him. I grabbed his wallet from his back pocket and took out a card. "Nova, don't. Don't do this" 

But I didn't listen. I lined the cocaine up and grabbed a dollar bill out of his wallet before I threw it at him before I snorted the line. The high I felt, felt great. The anger that was built up inside me had faded away. I smirked and pushed Wolf into the chair as he tried to talk to me but I wasn't listening. I ran my hand over his chest, feeling his muscles through his shirt before I leaned down to kiss him. Wolf had grabbed my arms and stopped me but again I pulled free and let my hand touch his jeans. 

"Don't you feel that?" I moaned into his ear. 

"Nova stop!" He growled out and pushed me off him. I landed on the floor with a thump.

"I thought that's what you wanted!" I yelled again before I started to giggle. He sat there staring at me like I had gone crazy with his hand in his hair. His face looked broken and in panic. 

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