Beneath Her | [R-16]

Chapter Thirty Nine

I've been circling around these buildings for about thirty minutes now. I turned off my phone because Ace and Kim kept on calling me. Ayaw ko muna ng ingay ngayon.

Kapatid ko si Andrea.

Tatay ko si tito Steve.

The guy that raised me, that I looked up to as a parent, killed my biological father. He killed him and I had the audacity to tell him to run.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko nasabi 'yun. Hindi ko na mahanap yung dahilan. Telling him the police are coming is the stupidest thing to do and I have no excuse for it.

Tangang tanga na ako.

I looked at my side mirror and Kim was still behind me. Nakasunod pa rin siya saakin kahit ilang minuto na akong paikot ikot dito.

Paulit ulit nalang.

Paulit ulit nalang yung sakit.

The only family I have left.... She already despises me and I haven't even told her everything I did yet. She's in a horrible situation

because of me.

Sinira ko yung buhay niya. I left her when I knew she needed me.

Hinding hindi na niya ako tatanggapin.

Wala na akong pamilya.

I have no one and nothing else left. Walang tatay, walang nanay, walang matinong pangarap.

Walang gana.

Why am I even here?

I looked up at the skyscrapers that I see. Malapit pala ako sa Heroine. Let me just go by real quick.

Binaba ko yung wine bottle na inubos ko kasi kanina ko pa iniinom at sinubukang tumakbo ng mabilis. Please don't drink and drive. Huwag niyo ako gayahin. I just badly need alcohol right now.

I don't want Kim to interfere with me so I did my best to lose him and it worked. Hindi ko na siya nakita sa likod ko kaya pumunta na ako sa Heroine.

Missy was there and smiled, "Miss Nat, may kailangan kayo?"

"Me?" I chuckled as I pointed myself. "No. I just want to go up."

"Po? Are you here to see sir Jaime? Wala po siya dito eh." she respectfully said with furrowed eyebrows. She probably thinks I look like a mess right now.

"No, no, rooftop. I'm going right back down as soon as I can. Please don't follow me." I smiled and continued walking to the elevator even if everything around me is spinning. It's official, I'm drunk.

"This is what's up!" I screamed as the elevator opened. The sun was setting but the view was still spectacular.

Naglakad ako sa may railing habang pinapanood bumaba yung araw. The more I see it go down, the more I felt sad. It's like sucking my happiness, bringing it down with it.

"Where do you think you're going?" I asked the sun while I climb the railing. "Hindi ka pa pwedeng bumaba! Ang dami mo pang responsibilidad!"

"Puta." I groaned in frustration when my foot slipped and I fell down. Aakyat nanaman ako. "Sandali lang, tangina naman. Pumunta ako dito para sa liwanag eh!"