Beneath Her | [R-16]

Chapter Twelve

Matahimik lang kaming dalawa na umalis ng Batangas. I was still pissed that he didn't tell me about what happened. Naiwan sa isip ko yung itsura ni Sierra sa video. It makes me want to confront him but I really just don't want to be involved in this. I mean, I am... But knowledge can get me in trouble.

There was this part of me that wanted him to tell me what that video is about. Gusto ko siya na ang magsabi nang hindi ko siya tinatanong. But he wasn't saying anything, even though I saw him view it earlier this morning.

Alam ko'ng yun 'yon dahil bigla niyang tinago, wala pang tatlong segundo ang lumipas. After trusting him, giving so much money into this, he lied.

"Here." sabi niya at inabutan ako ng slurpee from 7/11. Dinaan niya muna dito bago kami umuwi. Kinuha ko nalang nang hindi siya pinapansin and he did the same. We were both silent until I got to the convenience store near my house.

"Are you really going to ignore me? I'm sorry about Drey, I swear, hindi ko alam na iiwan nila siya. Everything was circumstantial, they couldn't drop everything just because a plus one wasn't there." he explained as he parked.

"Was that it? Can I go?" tanong ko at umakmang bubuksan ang pinto.

"What do you want me to say? I'll try to talk to them about the money." sabi nya at humarap saakin. Hinawakan niya yung kamay ko but I couldn't even look at him.

"The money's gone, okay? I'm not getting it back." I shot back at him. "What do you want me to do then? I'm sorry, I lied. Are you really that mad?" He made me look at him straight in the eyes as he held my face.

"Yun lang ba yung tinatago mo? You haven't lied about anything else? About their operations?" tanong ko habang nakahawak sa kamay niya na nakahawak sa mukha ko.

"They don't even tell me anything. I told you everything, Nat." How could he lie to me, when he's looking straight in my eyes? Tinanggal ko yung kamay niya sa mukha ko at lumabas ng kotse.

Narinig ko yung pintuan niya na bumukas. He called my name but I didn't look back. "I'll see you at school." I said and kept walking away from him.

It was a Saturday afternoon and I was already drinking. Grabe na yung impluwensiya nya saakin, pati 'to nakuha ko na. I learned how to sneak alcohol through the corner of my balcony.

Nagpakalasing ako hanggang sa papasok nanaman ulit. A drunk weekend wasted because of a guy.

"Kaya mo bang pumasok?" tanong ni yaya saakin habang nakasalo yung ulo ko sa table. I looked up on her and nodded. "Masisisante talaga ako sa ginagawa mo, nak. Hindi ka naman marunong dati niyan ah?" sabi niya at inabot sakin yung baso ng kape.

"You won't be, yaya. Promise." sabi ko at umalis na pagkatapos ko'ng ubusin yung kape.

Nagulat nalang ako sa nakita ko pagdating ko. Nakapasok na ulit sila Sierra at Cha, na parang walang nangyari. I'm so beyond what I planned to do tapos iniintindi ko pa si Kim. I'm losing control and I hate it.