Heartache

Chapter 14. Atsumu?

"Atsumu?"

I see Atsumu standing there, an extremely disappointed look on his face. I grab him by the shirt and pull him in, closing the door behind him. He has no jacket on, it's pouring outside, what's going on? He left with a jacket on, did he get mugged? Why is he so silent? "Atsumu! What's going on!?" I say as I grab his shoulders and start lightly shaking him. "Shoyo stop, I need to talk to you..." I stop shaking instantly, he sounded serious when he said that. I let go of him and keep my arms at my side, what is going on? "Shoyo, she wanted to do it... I couldn't... what's wrong with me... Shoyo... I denied her..." she wanted to do it? Atsumu denied her? "What do you mean you denied Tsumu?" The look of disappointment on Atsumu's face never changed. "We did attempt to do the do... but the more clothes that went off the more my body said no... Shoyo... why couldn't I do it?" Atsumu sounded like he was on the verge of tears. He couldn't get laid? Someone as attractive as him stopped when given the chance. "Tsumu, maybe you understood your feelings wrong..." I say being honest but also not trying to hurt him. Atsumu put his hands on my chest and pushed me to the wall, I hit my back pretty hard I'm now pinned to the wall. "Don't say things like that! I loved her! I did everything right! Why can't I touch her like she wants me to!?" Atsumu says getting extremely mad, he's never yelled at me like this before. "Atsumu calm down," I say trying to calm him down, but sadly for my sake, it didn't phase him at all. "Answer my question! You're smart when it comes to mental health!! Why couldn't I do it!? Why did my body reject her!? Tell me Shoyo!!" As he kept talking he kept getting louder and louder. I can't focus like this, he's getting louder. I pushed him away from me, I need my space. "Stop it Atsumu! I can't focus when you're screaming in my face! You can't get mad at me for saying what I think the problem is!" I scream back at him and I could see him clench his fist in anger. "There! you got your space! Now help me!" I glare at Atsumu and sigh. "Atsumu.. you're just confused, the only way I will continue talking to you is if you calm down," I say and then cross my arms in disappointment. He shot me a death glare but eventually did calm down by taking deep breathes. His eyes softened, his hands no longer clenched with anger. I get to see my normal Atsumu again. "I'm sorry Shoyo... I'm just experiencing things I've... never felt before... I'm not used to rejecting a good-looking woman that wants me." Atsumu said in defeat and sat on the floor, with his hands covering his face.

             I got on my knees and pulled Atsumu into a hug, I could tell he was crying. I was rocking him back and forth, I know he likes to be comforted this way. "...Shoyo?" I could hear him say between the cries. "Yes, Tsumu?" I say still rocking him, making sure he's comfortable. He moved his hands from his face and looked at me with his tearful eyes. He looked so sad but gorgeous to stare at, I love this man so much. I wanna make all the pain go away, I wanna see that perfect smile of yours. "Shoyo... I kinda... wish... you were a girl sometimes." Atsumu said drifting his beautiful eyes away from me. He, wishes I was a girl? What exactly is that supposed to mean? "Tsumu... why would you wish that?" I could see him wipe his tears away and look back at me. "Let's just forget... I said that.. please?" Atsumu said with a little sniffle at the end. I smile back at him "Of course Tsumu, anything to make sure you're comfortable." I smile at him. We sat there on the floor for a few more minutes, just me rocking him back and forth. I never want him like that again, I wanna be with him for the rest of his days. As long as I get to see his smile I will be happy.

               I end up falling asleep on the floor with him still awake. I wake up as he picks me up, but I decided to keep my eyes closed. He carried me to what felt like his room, he laid me on his bed. "I'm sorry Shoyo, I really do hate losing my temper on you... you're really the best thing that's ever happened to me." I heard him say that and walk out the room, I'm holding my tears back. Did he really mean that? Once I know he left for sure I couldn't hold it in anymore, I was crying. I could hear the shower turn on, he's in the shower. I sit up in the darkroom and realize that I am in his room wiping my tears. I sit in the dark for a little until I get tired of it and get up to turn the light on. After turning the light on I sat back onto his bed, I'm so tired but I wanna talk to Atsumu. I hear the shower turn off, he should be coming soon. I lay down and sigh, I can't get those words he said to me out of my head. Was he serious when he said that to me?

               I hear the door open I look towards the door to see Atsumu in only a towel. "Hey Tsumu" he looked at me and smiled "hey Shoyo, did you have a good nap?" He says with that smile I love so much I nod my head. He closed the door behind him and walked towards his drawer. "Hey, Shoyo?" I was still looking at him, he slid his towel off-putting on his undergarments. "Yeah Tsumu?" I say as he turned towards me with a smile, I can't stop loving it no matter the situation. "Did you eat dinner?" He goes towards his closet. "Yeah, I did... if snacks count..." he stopped and glared at me, oops. "What? Oikawa brought snacks." He walked up to me and picked me up, walking downstairs. What is he doing? He literally has like no clothes on right now. My face is on fire right now, I have to be completely red in the face right now. "P-put me down, I told you about carrying me like this!" I say covering my face, all I earned in response was a chuckle. A freaking chuckle! "What are you hungry for Shoyo?" I heard him say as we finally made it to the kitchen. "A big dose of.... put me down!!!!" I say and he laughs again putting me down in a chair. "Okay I have a good idea on what to make you, don't be picky okay?" I simply just nod, what do I say in this situation. I see him grab a bag of rice, rice balls maybe?

                   I sat there at the table watching him work from behind. My eyes drift to him and His back muscles are soo pleasing to look at, I could stare at them all day. After what felt like forever he placed a bowl of well-seasoned rice in front of me, I look at him and tilt my head. "Rice?" I then notice he has a smaller bowl in his hands, what is he doing with that? He pours an egg yellow on the top, that cheeky bum. He knows Tamago Kake Gohan is my favorite food, he made it for me? I blush at the fact he did this, what is he my boyfriend make food for me? No way "thank you... Tsumu" I say looking at the surprising delicious-looking food. He sat in the chair closest to me like Osamu did when we ate, it's like he's a different person now. What's going on? "Shoyo, eat it before it gets cold!" He snapped me out of my thoughts. I shake my head, say my thanks, and dig into my food. After finishing I went to the sink and washed my bowl, after finishing I was suddenly lifted off the ground and carried again. I sigh in defeat "fine you win, you can carry me with my permission." I look up towards a smiling Atsumu, I could only smile back. He carried me back to his room and place me on his bed. "Night Shoyo, I'll be back later to sleep as well... I got things to do" with that Atsumu left, I rolled to my side and closed my eyes. I better wake up with him here in the morning. After a few minutes, I end up falling asleep.

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Hello reader! I hoped you liked this chapter! I'm trying to pull out chapters but I suddenly hit a huge writer's block. I'm gonna try my best to post but I want the story to be at its best! So it might not be daily all the time, I'm sorry about this. But I really appreciate anyone that reads my story, thank you, and see you next chapter. <3