Heartache

Chapter 31. Touch

I know nothing really bad had the chance to happen but, why do I feel like this. Everyone around me was talking but I couldn't hear a word. I felt like I was deaf and I couldn't feel anything. My blinking slowed and my heart rate increased, my whole body felt weak. I started shaking, why do I feel like this?

        The arms around me gripped tighter causing me to finally be able to focus. I took a couple of deep breaths trying to slow my fast heartbeat. I look up at Atsumu who was giving me a sad look. As I'm looking at him I place my hand on his cheek. It hurts thinking about what happened.

"Shoyo?"

I could feel a tear slide down my cheek, but why? I continue to stare at his face, I could feel my chest tighten at the sight. I feel Atsumu grab my wrist softly.

"Shoyo... Babe..."

I close my eyes for a few seconds and open them again to see tears forming in Atsumu's eyes. I use my other hand to wipe it away, I put on a nice reassuring smile. Everything that I did felt like it used a lot of energy, I was tired. I laid on the couch without another word and quickly fell into a deep sleep.

         The next morning

         I wake up to the smell of something cooking. As I open my eyes I am blinded by how bright the living room is. I sit up slowly and look around to see no one was there, I quietly place my feet on the floor and stand up. I slowly walk towards the kitchen and peek my head in to see Oikawa making something. As I walk into the kitchen Oikawa immediately turns his head to me. He gave me a smile turning to the stove to a low, walking towards me.

          As he was walking towards me he had a rag drying his hands. "Hinata... how are you feeling?" Oikawa said and I just shook my head. Seems Oikawa didn't like my answer because the smile faded and turned into a sad frown. "I'm so sorry Hinata. I should've been there for you... you wouldn't be like this." He lowered his head in disappointment, I took this as a chance to hug him. "No, it's my fault... I wasn't strong enough.." I say as tears started forming in my eyes.

           He comforted me as I cried in his arms, I'm pathetic. A grown man crying because he got touched a little bit. "It's okay Hinata... he took advantage of the dark, he knew you couldn't see... so he used that against you. You're amazing Hinata!" Oikawa said trying to cheer me up, close my eyes as my tears finally stopped. Maybe he's right, I'm not weak he just took advantage of the situation.

          I pull away from the hug and rub my eyes softly, I look up at Oikawa and he's smiling at me. I smile back a little but look down embarrassed. "You hungry Hinata? I'm making brunch for everyone." Oikawa asked as he pulled away from the hug, I shiver from the lack of contact. "No... I'm not that hungry..." I say rubbing my stomach. Oikawa gives me a little chuckle while turning the stove's heat on higher. "That's fine. Go hang out with everyone else, They should be out front doing something." Oikawa pointed in the direction of the front door with the sticks he had in his hand.

         I nod and head towards the door grabbing my coat before opening the door. When I open the door I see a volleyball net spread across the grass. They seemed to be playing a game. I walked up to the net and set in the grass near it, I watched them play. After a few points, they finally noticed me sitting there watching them. Wasn't long till Atsumu placed his hand on my shoulder.

           My whole body began to shiver. Thoughts of last night started rushing through my head as Atsumu touched me. I pushed Atsumu away in fear of being touched like that again. Atsumu stared at me wide-eyed after I pushed him, he looked so heartbroken. I look around and everyone is staring at me in shock, I look at my hands. Why, did I do that? "Shoyo... are you okay?" Atsumu asked moving towards me, I looked at him stopping him in his tracks.

           My heart was beating fast, the only thing that ran through my mind is how powerless I felt. No matter what I did I could never get that disgusting feeling off of my neck. "Please... don't come any closer..." I say to Atsumu, he looked hurt when I said it and I felt really bad. He sighed and went back to the game, I watched the game and I couldn't keep my eyes off Atsumu.

           When the game was almost over Oikawa came from the front door shouting that brunch was ready. I get up and walk towards the door but I feel a hand being placed on my shoulder. My whole body tensed up, I didn't move. Contact doesn't feel the same as it used to. I turn around to see it was Osamu Instead of Atsumu. "Hinata... can I talk with you?" He asked and I didn't know what to say. Did he want to talk alone? I can't do that, what if he tried something?

           I shake my head in response, he sighs and takes his hand off my shoulder. "I know you probably don't want to meet with a guy alone right now.. that's okay, I don't want to rush you into anything."  Osamu walks inside, I follow him inside without another word spoken.

           We all sit at a big table turns out Atsumu planned for all these people. I was placed between Oikawa and Atsumu. Everyone said their thanks and began eating. As everyone was eating all I could do was stare at my plate of food. My stomach didn't feel hungry,  honestly, I felt like throwing up. Atsumu used his chopsticks and picked up a piece of meat from my plate.  "Shoyo babe... you gotta eat... " I heard him say and I turn towards him. His eyes showed so much sadness, he must be so worried.

           He put the piece of meat in front of my face. I put it in my mouth and began to chew, the nice taste running off my tongue. After I finish eating it I start to feel kinda hungry now, maybe I was hungry after all. I pick up my chopsticks and proceeded to eat more, but slowly. In the corner of my eye, I could see Atsumu smiling while looking at me.

        After everyone finished eating we all decided to go for a friendly walk, go seeing the forest surrounding us. I was putting on my walking shoes in front of the front door when I felt someone sit next to me. I looked towards the person, it was Iwaizumi. I immediately jump, turning away in fear. Why was he sitting next to me? "Hinata... I was asleep when all that happened... I know stuff like that doesn't sit well in anyone.." I turn to him as he spoke, but he was still putting on his shoes while he was talking. "I want you to know that all of us have your back, you can talk about it when you're ready. To one of us or all of us, just know we'll listen." Iwazumi said finishing tying up his shoelaces.

        He shot me a sweet smile before heading out the door. I finish putting my shoes on, I sit there and think about what he said. "To one of them or all of them... they'll listen.." I say to myself, maybe I should stop overcomplicating everything. I shake my head and stand up with a great stretch. I run outside to catch up to everyone closing the door behind me.

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Thanks for reading! How will Hinata cope with these new uncomfortable feelings? Will they just get worse? Find out in the next chapter! Have a great rest of your day!