hikari means light

14

TW MENTIONS OF
- NIGHTMARES
- SWEARING
- SELF DOUBT
- BULLYING
- USE OF SLURS

IZUKU POV

I wake up with a small eep sound coming from myself, pulling myself out of a nightmare before it got any worse.
I lay there for a few moments silent tears running down my face slowly one by one in the dark.

(Ooo mysterious nightmare how thrilling)

I sit up and pull the covers off me, slowly getting off the bed so the floor or bed frame doesn't creak as its being moved. Walking over to the window I open the curtains a little just so I can see wether its light out which it clearly isn't.
I can see the bright round cold moon.
It looks extraordinary.
Its my favourite part of patrol, besides helping people in danger, I get to see the moon.
When I was younger every full moon me and my mother would sit outside on a blanket and watch the moon come to life as it got darker. It was such a beautiful thing we shared and I loved it.
But that was a long time ago things are different now because I dont have her.

Youre alone.

But its ok because I still have myself.

You've already lost yourself. There's basically nothing left in there.

But I feel things.

You shouldn't.

But present mic and aizawa wanted me here.

Not for long.

But hitoshi wants me here.

Hes just being nice for his dads.

Shut up I dont want to listen to you.

I pull myself out of my thoughts, blocking off the dreadful voice in my head telling me all the bad things, and close the blinds walking away.

I walk towards the door and hesitate.
Should I go out there?
Would aizawa and present mic get mad?
Maybe but I want to explore if im quiet maybe they won't hear me.

I quietly open the door with it making a creaking sound that I was unable to avoid and step out not bothering to close it and risk waking anyone with the creaks.
If they walk by and ask in the morning ill say I was in the bathroom or something.

I walk down the hall towards the stairs and trudge down the stairs using my 'vigilante skills' to be silent.
I get down there and look around a bit.

I could really use some water
Theyre not going to mind me getting water im sure.

I open the fridge and look for a bottle of water so I dont dirty a cup and wake someone up with the sound of the tap running. As im about to close the fridge I hear someone coming down the stairs trying to be silent.
Not with my hearing you don't.
I turn around now instead of facing the fridge facing the person at the bottom of the stairs.
It wasn't one, but two people. hitoshi and aizawa.

"Zuku? Whatre you doing up at 1am?"
So it was 1 in the morning huh.
Wait why were both of them down here?

"Sigh. You should be asleep problem child. Am I going have to force you too or something?"

"Water. What are you two doing? Where's yamada." I say diverting the convasation towards them, completely ignoring aizawas comment about me sleeping. I wasn't lying when I said water. I was getting water. I just didn't tell them everything, only what was important.

"He went to Mcass because he wanted icecream. Hes getting us some too we didn't know if you'd be awake or not but we thought we'd get you some just in case"
(Mcass- idk if I can get copy striked on wattpad please someone tell me😭)