Are we really living?//TWD

SEVENTEEN

On the way back to the church Maggie's eyes were bloodshot and red around them from rubbing.

I feel around my right wrist and I still have Beth's bracelet from graduation.

"Beth would have wanted you to have this" I say and Maggie turns her head towards me off of Glenn's shoulder as I sat next to her.

I gently pulled her arm by the wrist and I tie it around hers.

"She made it for me after graduation, she was more happier than me that day" I say with a small smile creeping onto my face of the memory.

Maggie smiles at the bracelet then takes it off, and she places it in the palm of my hand.

"She made it for you so you should have it" she says and I kiss the back her hand.

Once we got to the church I saw Michonne holding Judith, Carl, and Gabriel.

I hop out of the car and Carl runs up to me nearly nocking me to the ground.

"I thought something bad happened to you or my dad. I was scared" He says muffling in my shirt.

"I am ok alright? I am superhero no?" I joke and he laughs then he pulls away from me.

"Beth?" He questions and I shake my head no then he frowns but nods in an acceptance.

I look at the church and to be honest it looks like shit.

"The hell happened here?" Rosita questions while scanning the building.

"You don't wanna know" Michonne says flatly. I'll take her word for it.

We all got back into the minivan and it was kinda crowded. Carl was sitting on my lap in the backseat behind Rick as he was driving, Michonne holding Judith in the passenger sear and everyone else all squished together.

Carl fell asleep in my arms as I stroke his hair back, I look behind me at Gabriel then to Michonne.

"What happened at the church?" I ask her and she shrugs.

"Gabriel snuck through the floorboards in his room to outside I don't know exactly why but he's making it very hard for us to trust him" she says as she has Judith's head on her chest listening to her heartbeat.

As Rick kept driving it was getting dark and we would all have to sleep in here but I don't sleep, I sleep for 2 hours at most.

"Ya need stitches" I heard Daryl say from next to me.

"Well I don't think I have a needle and thread lying around, do you?" I say and he shakes his head no. "Then all I can do is not get it infected" I say then I sigh.

"Ya know you can at least cover it up" I hear Beth's voice, I knit my eyebrows together and I look around in confusion.

But Beth is dead, I watched them put her in the ground myself. This is a little weird.