Are we really living?//TWD

SIXTEEN

Once we got to the hospital we couldn't just walk in and say 'hey we want two of our people back' and not get a gun pointed to our heads.

So we had a plan we took 2 police officers hostage so we could bargain a trade. The male officer had the nerve to be arrogant, so I held a gun to his temple and cocked it then I said.

"You will do whatever we tell you to do because if you do not then it will not be a picnic in a park I will tell you that much"

But Rick said I couldn't kill him only threaten. On that note we got inside peacefully to talk with the leader named Dawn.

We traded the female officer cause the other one got himself killed.

When Beth came back with Carol I kissed her on her forehead and cheeks.

"I was worried" I whisper to Beth.

"I said I'd never leave you and I'm gonna keep that promise" she says back and I move some strands of hair back from her ponytail.

"Give me Noah back" Dawn says and my head snapped up so fast.

"What? No that isn't part of the deal" Rick says and I nod in agreement.

"I lost two now I need someone to replace them" she says and Noah steps forward to Rick.

"It's okay I'll be fine" he says then rubs Rick's shoulder.

Beth walks up to Dawn and something in her hand but I can't tell what.

"You said I'm weak" Beth fires at Dawn "you're wrong I am strong" she says then stabs Dawn in the chest.

Before I could comprehend anything that happened a shot was fired, I felt something splatter on my face, and my temple stings.

I look down and I see Beth laying on the floor with blood running down from the back of her head and flesh coming out of her head.

I drop to my knees and I crawl towards Beth's lifeless body. My breath is shaking, I grab the sides of her head, and I just scan her face.

"Beth no no n-no you can't leave me you said you will never leave me..." I mutter and my voice going quiet at the end but I don't dare shed a tear. Her eyes blacked out staring into the abyss.

I didn't realize Daryl shot Dawn, I close Beth's eyes softly. I slowly look up at the officer pushing the people behind her.

I grab my handgun aiming it at her head, my hand is shaking as I held it.

I stand up to my feet my gun still on her. I cock it and I feel a hand on my back trying to calm me.

"Tony put the gun away alright?" I hear Sasha say. I shake my head no.

"No they killed her no I need to do this" I say back and I put my index finger on the trigger.

"Beth wouldn't want you to do this or Carl" she says and as soon as she said Carl I slowly put my gun back into my holster.

I walk towards the people on the other side.

"I hope you die a slow and painful death and if we cross paths again let this be a reminder" I grab the officer's arm which made her gasp.

I cut a T into her palm with my knife and her wincing.

"I will kill you myself" I say then I forcefully throw ger arm back, and I spit on her uniform.

I start walking out and Daryl's carrying Beth's body as well. When we left the elevator I stabbed the controls while everyone jumped.

As we walk outside I could see Maggie and everybody else too. As soon as Maggie sees Beth's body she broke down sobbing. I can't look at her while she's sad so I close my eyes.

"Did you know that your mine and Maggie's best friend?" Beth says while making a bracelet.

"Oh really I have that title now?" I say with a grin as I'm sitting in Beth's room on her bed.

"Yup we're all basically one big family, because my daddy likes you and so does my mama" she says and I smile bigger.

She gets done with her bracelet and she motioned me to come here. So I put my wrist out and she tied the bracelet on my wrist.

"We will do anything for you cause we love you and I will never leave you only if and when you ask me to" she says and hides her face from embarrassment.

"Is Beth Grenne blushing? Oh come here" I say while pulling her by her neck into a hug.

We went out to a field to bury her body and I have mixed emotions like I want to kill someone.

I see there's a car, I walk towards it and I look in the reflection of the drivers window and I see I still have Beth's blood on my face.

I start aggressively wiping it off with my sleeve and on my right temple the bullet grazed me it's not deep but deep enough to where I need stitches.

I start breaking the windows from anger and sadness with Rick's hatchet I managed to take.

I smash the windshield and I start kicking the headlights with the bottom of my foot.

"Ya done yet?" I hear a voice behind me and I recognize it's Daryl. I ignore him and I start pouncing on the hood of the car. "Ya gonna attract walkers" he says walking up to me.

I look at him with a blank face and I throw the hatchet into the drivers door making the blade pierce it and keeping it in place.

"I get to be mad and I get to break shit cause I lost my sister to some stuck up bitch" I say and Daryl just stares at me.

"Don't ya think I miss her? But you don't see me breakin shit I deal with it and I keep going" he raises his voice at me.

I start snorting and cackling, I try to shut up but I can't. Daryl just stares at me with no emotion on his face. I feel my eyes stinging and watery.

All of my emotions being let out by laughter I feel pathetic.

I keep laughing and I feel tears nonstop running down my face as I kept laughing, my laughs grew quiet then I started choking out sobs.

Nobody has ever seen me cry except Maggie and I feel weak but also weight lifting. Daryl wraps his arms around my shoulders and I bury my face into his chest then I slip my arms around his torso.

I felt him brush my hair back softly trying to calm me down.