Remember
"This is where she drowned..." Ad uttered with so much pain.
We're both standing at the white sand. Ang memorya sana naming dalawa rito ay isang bagay na dadagdag sa kabanata ng bagong buhay na puno ng kapayapaan.
I smiled weakly. Tinanaw nang mga mata ang kayang abutin kasabay ng malamig na hanging umiihip at nanunuot sa aking balat ang pagkukukay kahel ng langit sa malayong dako ay isang tanawin na gugustuhin mong masulayapang muli. Lumulubog ang haring araw at nagsisimula ng magkulay abo ang kalangitan pagkaraan lamang ng ilang segundo.
I didn't bother myself wiping the tears that's escaping my eyes. I blinked my eyes to stop the silent tears but I just failed. Hinayaan ko na lang na tumulo at panoorin ang nagngangalit na alon sa harapan naming dalawa.
"I'm sorry..." he uttered.
Umiling ako at hindi na siya tinignan. The sceneries of ocean in front of us is addictive but yet, it brought so much pain to the man beside me.
Ang akala ko noon naiintindihan ko na ang mga bagay-bagay na nasa paligid ko. Na kapag ginusto ko matutunan ko, matatanggap...but I was wrong for thinking that way. I was very wrong.
All these years my only concern is all about myself. My only problem is the one I love. My only care is how will I go on with my life without thinking what life really means. Imagine, I'm living without knowing what life is. My life necessary for myself only, I don't even know what my role in this world. Meanwhile, the person around me yearning for the person they really treasure. Fulfilling their role in anyone's life.
Time really flies so fast, fast than a whirling wind. Mas mabilis pa sa pagkurap ng mga mata. It's like you just shut your eyes for one second or less and when you opened it...dun mo lang mari-realize na madami kang nasayang na panahon.
I graduated in Senior High and everything is on the line. My family and Velascos having a good time, I had my best times with Ad, we fill our mind with the thoughts of finishing our profession while having each other and we did. I took accountancy since yun lang naman ang available sa Salvacion College School na nagustuhan ko. Ad took Vet in Manila and later on he went to Spain for school again.
I graduated and he was there. We talked through socmed we had our fights over petty things and that is because of me. One time napaaga anf uwi niya dahil nag-away kami.
"I don't want you mad at me while I'm away, who knows baka may gawin kang kakaiba" he said while holding both of my hands.
I actually want to nag him 'cuz of his words.
"At ano naman ang gagawin ko?! Malay ko ba kung ikaw ang may kalokohan roon!" pagtataray ko.
"Well..." naningkit ang mga mata ko "...hindi naman maiiwasan na may lumapit na mga babae-"
He stopped when I pulled back my hand then he laughed.
"What?! Look, stop overthinking okay? I.don't.have.any.other.woman."
He said with those fucking puppy eyes.
Puppy eyes?! Ugh! Can't believe this!
Lagi siyang umuuwi kapag may okasyon sa Velasco man o sa Salvacion.
Umabot sa paa ko ang malamig na tubig ng dagat. I stared at it. Napangiti na lang nang mapagtanto na talagang napakahabang panahon na ang nakalipas.
I graduated, I got my profession. I have my work, I earn money and I bought things without asking money from my parents. I already have my own house. I have someone I'm sure I love and will love. Wala na akong mahihiling pa. I'm not lucky but I'm blessed that I have the things I want to have.
