Eternal Love [Jenlisa]

Chapter 32

A memories of her high school year, where her locker would often being flood with a bunch of letters which she would secretly reading one of them is now came to her mind.

She knew how lisa love to express herself through a piece of paper, but after all these years, she never know it's still haven't yet change

"I've made a reservation" she utter with a smile, as the receptionist greet the brunette with a gracious smile with a courtesy nod

With the help of the lady guiding her to the table, they parted ways with an exchanges smiles before she place herself on the chair with a soft breath being released.her bag being place on her lap , before having her legs crossed and arms folded over her chest with her gaze wander around looking at the interior design of the restaurant, which eventually fell on the large window that shows a beautiful view of the city outside

A month , has passed

The whole month had give her a times to make up her mind and get herself out from the toxicity of her own behavior ,and learning to become a better version of herself

For the good of her, and lisa

Yet, the whole month had also give her a tough times to live, to live as a normal human being without crying all day and night, without feeling the fear crept up her spine in the middle of the night when the anxious thought arise from her head, or having herself sweating as her face soaked with tears when she woke up in the morning, which the only time that will let her escape from the horrifying dreams

The night terrors, that have been haunting her since the lost of her mother had left from dragging her into the world of guilt, and that changes happened, was after the marriage of her with lisa

Her former nights used to have herself waiting for the agony taking over her entire being, letting the curse of the dreams to take over her mind and replacing the darkness with a self resentment,and allowing the tears to flow out despite from her closed eyes

All she could do was to wait for the morning to comes, letting the ray of the sunlight hitting on her skin and make her awake from the suffocating dreams

But ever since she got married, she has often left in wondering about where those dreams went to.

Maybe the soft caress against her hair that she would often felt when she was asleep, everytime when lisa got home from work is what that keep her away from the nightmare.or perhaps the soothing whisper of the blonde telling her how much she love her is the one that allowing the peace engulfing her mind.and probably, the soft kiss that she will earned on her head from lisa is what actually keep her safe throughout the night

She miss it.she miss to pretend to asleep everytime her ears caught the noise of the door being opened in the middle of the night, only to make lisa crouching beside the bed while talking to her in a careful whisper, as if afraid of waking her up while she was truthfully smiling inside

But for a month, the night terrors seems like finding herself again,never miss to haunting her mind in every single night, with the only difference was this time, it's no longer about her mother,

But lisa

She's exhausted from being left breathless everytime the nightmare awakens her from her sleep ,while finding herself drenched in sweat and tears all over her face,and absolutely tired of feeling the pain etching on her heart when her mind bring the frightening image of lisa in her dreams into the reality.

The tumbled car , the unconcious state of her wife, the unpleasant sound of the siren, and the lack of air that she'll get everytime the image of it appearing in her mind