found you ; mattia polibio

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kavia's pov (when is it not lmao)

um these are text messages between alana (kavia's sister) and kavia i don't really know how to write texts so i tried my best lmao

alana <3

alana <3: hey kav! i miss you so much 🥺 when are you coming to see me??

kavia: i miss you too :( and whenever dad lets me ??

alana <3: so not for awhile...
alana <3: i would drive down to missouri but with the pandemic i don't think dad would want me around you all especially with the cases the way they are in nyc :/

kavia: i know
kavia: i could drive up thereeeee

alana <3: ha ha very funny 😆 you're 17. nyc is a 15 hour drive from missouri. and even if you could drive it, dad doesn't want to take you and jaden up here right now and you know he wouldn't let you come alone.

kavia: i know. but i miss you. i didn't think we'd have to go this long without seeing each other. you're still my best friend lana 😣

alana <3: i know, i miss you too kavi 😔 we'll be able to see each other soon, i promise. i love you ❤️

kavia: i love you too ❤️

i sighed and set my phone down. i looked at the clock and made out the time 1:03 am through the dark. i quietly got out of bed and walked to the bathroom. i stared at my reflection for a few moments before splashing cold water on my face. after i dried it, i quietly walked back into my room and grabbed an empty notepad and a pen from my desk.

i started making a list. necessities i would need to take with me if i decided to run away. i squeezed my eyes shut really thinking about what i was doing. never in my life had i ever been this rebellious, this willing to do something that would get me in so much trouble. all through middle and high school i stayed away from things like sneaking out, partying, drinking, drugs, and so much more. i don't know if i was a goody two shoes or whatever they call it but i was definitely what you'd call the "mom" of the group. the responsible one, i always kept all my friends in check. the kavia that i always knew would've never even considered doing something this crazy. but i don't know if i'm still that kavia anymore. the thought scared me and i quickly put the notebook in my nightstand drawer and closed my eyes, trying to go to sleep.

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throughout the next few weeks, i continued making my list, and started taking things from around the house. i took one of our coolers from downstairs. i took things like duct tape, scissors, paper, and pens. i took snacks that didn't need to be refrigerated. i took them in small doses, making sure not to get caught. every time i brought another item into my closet and checked it off from the list, i grew more anxious. was i really going to do this? to sneak out and run away to new york city?

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i snuck my brothers baseball bat into my room. i took an umbrella. i drove to the store one day after school and bought plastic silverware and napkins. soon enough i had gotten most stuff around the house, and i started packing. clothes, toiletries, blankets, pillows. i hid all of it in my closet.