The Beanie

Chapter 5

My breath hitched, hands trembled and the tears started to prick at my eyes. No... I dropped the phone and watched as it bounced off my bed onto the floor. Suddenly, the anger bubbled up inside of me and I knew I wouldn’t be able to control myself if someone tried to speak to me, so I ran towards the front door.

As I turned the corner I ran into a something, or should I say someone. Ashton looked down at me concern filling his eyes instantly questioning my tearstained cheeks and trembling body. “Raven what’s wrong? What happened?” He quickly blurted out while tilting my face up to look at him so he could tell if I was lying. Barely managing to choke out the word forming on my tongue, but it would explain everything. “Max...” I stuttered as I quickly brushed past him, past Alex without making eye contact and straight out the front door, completely ignoring the repetitive calling of my name.

Luckily, there’s a bus stop just a few meters up the road from our house which always came in handy when someone wanted to escape from our family (which does happen often). I sat on the rotting slab of wood and stared up to rid my eyes of tears and focused on the rusty metal sheltering me. I noticed water started to trickle through a gap in the rood. I lowered my head to see the road, where the rain was starting to pelt down. Gee just what I needed...

In a matter of minutes, a grey bus covered in ads pulled up in front of the rundown little shelter I was waiting under. It looked fairly empty; I could only see a lady in her 30s sitting by the window. The doors opened up to reveal some steps, as I reached the second I looked at the old man driving the bus and gave him a small smile before retreating towards the back of the bus. Raindrops were constantly racing down the large glass windows, outside there wasn’t a single object that wasn’t saturated.

After 5mins, the bus slowed to a halt due to a red light. A large rainbow umbrella caught my attention near a quiet cafe; it lifted up to reveal a young couple.

She was beautiful... her smile seemed to make the guys eyes light up like headlights. His hand hesitantly reached for hers whilst holding up the umbrella for her, I guess she saw his hand moving closer because she met him halfway. They looked so happy, so sweet and completely, in, love... I watched as their eyes met and their heads started to lean in as their eyes reluctantly closed. Just before they were about to kiss, the bus started up again causing the umbrella to cover their faces from view. Sighing, I continued looking out the window.

It was then, I realised something...
Alex’s beanie, I still had it on. Pulling it off my head and letting it float onto my lap, I focused on it as a smile tugged at my lips whilst allowing a small giggle to escape them. I was remembering his face when I pulled back from whispering in his ear. When he thought he had won, and those beautiful blue eyes when they had that small twinkle. Wait..? Did I just say beautiful..? My nose scrunched up, no doubting he was good looking and his eyes were a unique shade of blue, he is still my brothers annoying best friend. I let that sink in, and then pushed those other absurd thoughts about Alex away. Readjusting my hair, I once again stretched his beanie over my blue hair. Only this time, I recognised how much it smelt like him. WOW, I sound creepy... I then started to giggle at myself; I’m just a dork sometimes. Alex kind of smelt like vanilla, it was weird that he actually smelt nice though. He looks like a mess most of the time but manages not to smell gross. That smell though, it just seems to trigger something but I can’t put my finger on it...

Then it hit me... Max, he smelt like vanilla... The fact he had messaged me, he doesn’t miss me because he wouldn’t have left me otherwise... Max and I had a strong relationship I thought. One that wouldn’t brake until the day we died. We would still be that happy couple right now if it weren’t for the fact he didn’t leave me that day when he first said he loved me..! In our 3rd month of dating he finally told me the words I wanted to hear the day we got together. Despite us no longer being a thing, or even talking, I still remember that day like it was yesterday.

February 14th, Valentines Day, ironic right..? He showed up at my doorstep with his chocolate brown hair ruffled up and covering his gorgeous emerald eyes that made me melt. As soon as he saw me his pink lips curved up into a triumphant smile whilst handing me a single white rose. I took it gently, afraid that it would wild as soon as my fingers came into contact with the stem. Max then intertwined our fingers and ran to the bus stop, without a word we sat in a comfortable silence just grinning like idiots. When he stood up I presumed we had arrived at our destination, by now the rain had stopped but there was still drops falling every now and then.

We reached the public park and stood in the middle of the pathway near the amazing fountain. Max’s arms snaked around my waist so he was hugging me from behind burrowing his face into the crook of my neck. Which made me shiver since the metal of his lip piercing ran along my skin, and the cold wind picked up. “Rave-baby, you’re starting to shiver...” His voice was muffled but then he lifted his head and pouted at me. “That’s because I’m cold ya goof” I spoke in a playful voice turning my head around and kissing his cheek. After my lips lingered upon his pale cheek, the rain started again. We didn’t care though. I just stared up into the dark night sky admiring the grey clouds filled with rain while Max was still wrapped around me. Feeling his eyes on me I turned my body around in his arms so I was now facing him and looped my arms around the back of his head while playing with his hair, his arms still securely just above my hips.

While I was focused on his hair, he stared at me so intently before his voice broke the silence. “You’re so beautifully flawless...” He breathed, a burning sensation taking over my cheeks signally I was blushing.“Raven..?” Even him saying my name caused my legs to become weak. I met his gaze, looking back at him, replying innocently. “Yeah..?” 

“Raven. I, ah, I-I think I’m in love with you...” My breath hitched immediately, and my heart began to beat rapidly, so much it could be heard a mile away. I leaned forward, closing the gap between us by crashing my lips on his. Max kissed back within a second. After a moment, I pulled away gently resting my forehead against his. “I think I love you too...” This caused him to break out into the biggest smile I’ve ever seen, before crashing his lips onto mine again.

“Sweetie, are you alright? I saw you crying and want to know if you’re ok..?” My head snapped to the lady who had sat herself down next to me. Registering what she had just said, my fingers grazed under my eyes and sure enough tears were streaming down my face and staining my cheeks once again. “Y-yeah, I’m fine thank you” I spoke nearly as softly as she did while I fake a smile. She obviously didn’t buy it but respectfully didn’t push the limits. “You’re welcome love, but you might want to be heading home soon. It’s getting quite late and not usually too safe on the streets”. She said whilst getting up and sending a comforting smile my way. I mirrored her smile and made my way to the front of the bus to ask the driver to take me home. The man agreed but told me he had to make on last stop before he could. I nodded in understanding as I picked myself up and headed back to where I was originally seated.

Allowing myself to sink down in the brown leather seat, I pressed my back up against the window, rested my feet on the seat and leant my head on my shoulder.

Let’s try to sort out my life shall we...?

 

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