The Beanie

Chapter 27

I felt my stomach twist into a thousands knots as a new sensation of various emotions flooded my body and mind.

There. Right in front of me, was Alex... AND some girl.

They weren't talking, watching tv, no nothing normal..! They were eating each others faces off!

Upon the couch was Alex and a girl with wavy ginger hair, whose face I couldn't see, kissing. So content and carefree. HOW DARE HE!

I don't know what had gotten into me but I DIDNT like it! Not one bit..! A complete MIX between furiousness, frustration, hurt, and, JEALOUSY..! Hot tears, from anger instead of sadness pricked sharply at my eyes. NO. I will not show my emotions..! THIS shouldn't hurt me, so why was it..? We weren't ANYTHING, where we..? No. Of course not! I should have known... From the beanie, to our first kiss, to ALL his confessions, everything. It was nothing... WE are nothing..!

Realising I've been in the same spot, paralysed for longer then needed, I slammed the door behind me without turning away from them.

The harsh collision of the wooden door erupted into a sharp echo that anyone in the neighbourhood could of heard. Almost immediately they pulled apart, both their shocked faces staring at me. I tried my absolute hardest at keeping a blank face, no emotion WHAT SO EVER.

The girl was around my age, and not going to lie, she was stunning. Long wavy ginger hair, pink plump lips, sparkling green eyes, pale skin, and a slim yet still slightly curvy body. She wore a cute black skirt that flowed to her knees and a half tucked in plain grey singlet. Honestly I saw her as someone I could get along with, because after all I'm NOT angry or feeling anything towards her. No. It was ALL directed at Alex...

Speak of the devil, I took in his appearance too. Jet black hair that was messier then usual (thanks to what I interrupted a moment ago), swollen pink lips, the usual black jeans and random band tee. Not to mention, his spider bites seem to be back (they were taken out and closed up ages ago).

"You're home" Alex breathed with somewhat guilt nipping at his voice. OH YES, IM HOME YOU TWAT..! I kept my face unreadable as my voice stern and steady, "I know". With that I tried to walk as casually as possible upstairs (to convince that I wasn't bothered and also didn't want to be bothered), not even satisfying him with a second look.

As soon as my presence was out of their sight, I sped up completely and walked like I was a man on a mission. I needed to cool of and relax, my solution? A hot shower. It ALWAYS helps. I locked the bathroom door and dumped my bag along with the clothes I was wearing onto the tiled floor. My hand turned the hot water on but retreated back to avoid contact with it. As it warmed up to my ideal temperature I stepped into he shower and let the water drench me whilst just standing there.

After a good 15mins, I turned off the shower and wrapped a towel around myself. After drying off I kept it hugging my body as I brushed my hair in front of the fogged up glass. Next I ravaged through my new bad and pulled out something to wear. Just the usual, underwear and baggy shirt.

Unlocking the door I once again walked in an angry pace until reaching the bedroom. Just in case, I cracked it open to see if it was empty. Thankfully just to my luck, the lights were off indicating no one was in there, which just welcomed me in. Now it was this doors turn to be locked but just to be sure I'd be left alone, I dragged his desk across the floorboards until directly pressed against the door.

A bit dramatic you think? Well fudge off! I dont know about you, but I sure as hell don't want ANYONE near me right now..! I only want to get some sleep and ignore the world and the morons in it...

Peeling back the blanket I slid myself under it, resting comfortably on the mattress and soft pillow. I snuggled down into the bed and hugged the extra pillow between my arms like a person. Only the pillow wouldn't leave nor hurt me...

But even I knew that tonight, I wouldn't get any sleep. I mean seriously, how could I..? I knew that until early hours I'd be tossing and turning constantly, unable to feel the bliss of sleep and dreams.

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By now, it was 2am... Like I predicted, I spent endless hours of tossing and turning never finding a comfortable position. Because I had fully figured out my own stupidest and most dismissed secret... One that caused me great pain and to be vulnerably upset.

I liked Alex, a lot...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Alright so once again, new character added. Lil ginger girl ^-^ so unlike other stories you've read, how there's a 'trampy' chic who ruins everything in some way, well NO this isn't like that. I HATE that. Legit, there is nothing I hate more then those people who even make up someone who doesn't exist but still tag them into a stereotype name such as; tramp, slut, bitch etc... NO! THAT IS FUCKING NOT OK! Those are my LEAST favourite words, like I'm friends who people who use those words and all in jokes and being serious. I on the other hand, I refuse to use or even speak those kind of disgusting words. Yeah, I may swear, HEAPS. But things like that, I can't...

You are beautiful and amazing no matter what, and are cute as hell kiss emoticon

Night munchkins and sassquashes xx