~Let Me Love You~

32. Let Me Love You

3rd Person P.O.V. ~

It was almost past midnight when Forth dragged his heavy steps and entered in his home. He was a little drunk because he only had beers today but not like he is not in his right mind or aware of his surrounding.

The house was dark and eeirly quiet indicating that no one is awake.

He felt very weak and tired with his empty stomach and crying all day but he continued pushing himself further climbing every step one by one on the stair.. His coat was hanging in his right hand and was touching the floor. He had his sleeves rolled up to his elbow and three buttons were opened on his chest.

He silently opened the bedroom door thinking about how would he face Beam in the morning. He thought he has whole night to gather the courage because Beam must be sleeping right now..

Or so he thought..

He freezed at the door when he saw that small figure sitting on the edge of the bed with his slumped shoulder hanging his foot to the floor in the dark room with only a lamp of his bedside table on but it was enough for Forth to see everything clearly.

Beam noticed the movement and looked up with his emotionless eyes.

Oh those doe eyes that were beaming with joy and happiness, how cold they are now ..

They looked at each other and Beam was first to lower his head looking at the floor.

Forth gently closed the door and left the coat on the floor and took a deep breath. He began walking closer to Beam who stiffed at his place fearing what would come next.

Did I really lose him..? Will he ever forgive me for the hurt and pain I caused him.. Ten years ago and now.. That's all Forth was thinking about with his each heavy step .

Forth knelt in front of him on the floor slowly placing his head in his lap and rounding his arms around his waist. It didn't take long for the tears to come out and soon he was sobbing weakly in the lap of his husband.. His Love...How he missed him so much..

To say Beam was stunned is an understatement. He literally had no idea what is happening and how he should react anymore.

He could feel the silent cry and the tears which were wetting his clothes. Forth was so weak and messed up that it was hurting him so bad.

He reached out with his shaky hands and started stroking Forth's hair gently with his fast beating heart.

Beam was not so different from him..He didn't know when he started crying but he saw his own tears falling on Forth's head.

Both were hurt.. Both were crying and both didn't know what to say to the other..but one thing is sure.. they could feel each other's pain and after everything.. they are still here together gripping the other tightly and trying to soothe..

"I.. I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry.." Forth whispered while sobbing but Beam could hear him loud and clear in their silent bedroom.

"Sshhh.. It's ok.. Why are you sorry.. You did nothing wrong.. You just reminded me our deal.. I am sorry that I forgot.. It's okay.." Beam caressed his head softly.

It hurts him a lot to say and accept that but It hurts him more to see Forth like this.. So broken, weak and fragile.. He would never pressure or force Forth for something..

"No.. No.. You are not getting it." Forth quickly lifted his head shaking it and looked at Beam. "I.. I.." He didn't know what to say or how to say everything to him.