~Let Me Love You~

23. Vows

Forth's P.O.V. ~

I was mesmerized looking at the most breathtaking view in front of me. 

No I won't say it's because Beam was looking beautiful because he always does.

But at this moment I realised how important and meaningful this person is to me. I felt what I was trying so hard not to.

I fell in love with Beam Baramee and still falling for him no matter how much i tried not to.

I knew he is something special when he came into my office the very first day and I couldn't help myself becoming curious about him.

I was looking at Beam who was coming towards me with a bouquet in his soft and pale hands and with beautiful smile on his face which turned into confusion when he saw me waiting before aisle and not on the altar.

"You are not my wife. We are going to be husbands so we should walk the aisle together.. May I.?" I asked presenting my hand to him which he held smiling shyly nodding his head with flustered face.

We walked together between our friends and family to the altar and finally stood in front of each other holding our hands.

My Mom who was sitting in the front row was looking at us with so much love and adoration and I could see tears in her eyes.

She gave me my life.. Once when she gave birth to me and second time when she gave Beam to me. She is the reason Beam came to our lives and I am so thankful for that.

I rubbed his ring finger with my thumb where I will put the ring soon to complete our marriage. We already decided to keep our engagement rings in box and wear the wedding rings from now on only.

The pastor made the formal speech and introduction while I was looking at Beam the whole time.

"You are okay right.?" I whispered to him and he nodded.

He was smiling beautifully and it was melting my heart to see him like this. 

My soon to be husband.. I love you.

"You both can take your vows now." The pastor's voice brought me back to the reality.

I took a long deep breath while closing my eyes and soon opened them and then started speaking what I wanted to tell him from the bottom of my heart..

"I want to say so much but it will still be nothing compared to what you are to me Beam. I won't say that you changed my life only.. because You became my life Beam.. And you will be till the moment Forth will breathe.. there will may be ups and downs in our life but I want you to know that I will be always by your side to hold you tight whenever you will stumble and I hope that you would do the same. Like everyone says and knows I was so cold and still am but you are the warmth of my life that keeps me alive."

"Beam Baramee Vongviphan.. I want you to know that I love you so much and I will always do.. Near or far no matter where we are.. My heart will beat for you.. and only you.. I love you."

I was constantly fighting this urge within myself and tried to shush it by making excuses but I can't lie to myself. Not anymore when he is here holding my hand and getting married just to make me and my family happy. How selfless can a person be I learned from him.

I Forth Jaturapoom love Beam Baramee. I love him.. I love everything about him and I know he doesn't look at me that way so I will not be selfish and hope anything more than this. I'm happy enough that he came in my life.

Beam's P.O.V. ~

If all of this is a dream then I never want to wake up again.

I never knew lies could make you this happy. Forth's every word was ringing in my ear and making me shy and happy and I was feeling the whole zoo in my stomach going wild not just butterflies.