~Let Me Love You~

19. After Morning Talk

Forth's P.O.V. ~

I opened my eyes and came across the most beautiful view in front of me.

Beam was sleeping peacefully in my arms hugging my waist and with his head on my shoulder with a soft snore coming from his nose.

The view made me smile and i remembered last night that how he was trying to calm me down.. how he was assuring me everything is ok.

How he kissed me..

I don't know what he was thinking. Maybe he took a pity on me I was a mess as always or maybe he is just nice enough to help me relax.

Whatever the reason is I dont care as long as he is happy and comfortable with what he is doing with me.

I don't want to make things awkward between us after all those heart to heart talking and understanding and last night was just.. I don't know maybe a step forward to our future.

I was just staring at him without moving a muscle so i won't disturb his precious sleep.

After a while he finally squealed and opened his still sleepy eyes and looked at me.

Beam's P.O.V. ~

"You look funny." I told Forth when I opened my eyes and looked at his face. He was looking cute and embarrassed or guilty I wasn't sure but he was nowhere the mighty Jaturapoom.

He made an un amused face and thinned his lips. I chuckled and ruffled his hair before sitting on the bed leaning on the headboard while he was still lying in the bed.

I know he wants to talk about last night or atleast ask why I kissed him but I don't know if I have any answer.

I woke up in his arms and it was a very warm and new feeling for me but I wasn't surprised. Infact I will cherish every moment with him from now on as long as I can.

"Do you wanna talk about it.?" I asked after being silent for some time.

He glided near me a little and put his head on my lap much to my surprise but I didn't say anything and slowly started stroking his hair.

We both didn't know when we became so close and comfortable with each other but we surely didn't ask or complained. We just let it be.

"Do you think of me as someone sick or abnormal now.?" He asked so softly looking into my eyes.

"Of course not.. You are silly to even think like that. Bad dreams are normal everyone has it." I replied to him.

"It happens to me almost every night or atleast it was like that before you came but i still have it from time to time. I had to take sleeping pills or get drunk so i could sleep a little better but it didn't go away. It's still here.. A little less than before but it is still here." He said closing his eyes while I kept stroking his head.

"How long it has been and why.?" I asked.

"It has been ten years. It started after that accident where.. you know.." He couldn't complete the sentence but I knew what he was talking about. 

"I know. So it started from a traumatic experience. Why don't you consult a doctor. Maybe they will help you." I told him and he just chuckled.

"You are cute." He said pinching my cheeks and I smacked his head.

"No I'm not." I said furrowing my eyebrows and he laughed.

"Don't you think I would have done it if it was that easy to get rid of." He said and it made sense. He sighed and continued his story.