BNHA : Gay Ass One Shots

OCD - Kiribaku

So for a couple months now since at least September of 2020 from what I remember, I struggled with OCD because of an incident that stressed me out to the point where my mind would make me think I could change the future by doing these tasks. And they don't necessarily rely on family members or close friends dying, it's more like something I'm scared of.

For example, right now I've been stressed about losing my eyesight for some reason. I've had my red glasses that I'm sure my regular m&ms (My readers/ followers from the beginning) remember seeing in my face reveal that I had deleted when I started to continue this book and my tongue piercing chapter that I still have up. But I've had those since I believe September of 2019 and when I went to my eye appointment at Target because-- Anyways, They said my prescription changed only a little, like a quarter? So now I have like a -5.25 in my right eye and a -6.25 in my left eye. I can't see anything past my middle finger with my palm against my eye before it started getting blurry and my dad wants to get me lasik when I'm 25 so in like 7 years after I turn 18 in May. And I guess my mind was like, "You know what? You're gonna be scared of this now." Kind of like it's just picking out random things to be scared about. 

Anyways, I'm getting off topic. Whenever I'm scared about things, or anything that's recently happened, I'd be taking a shower and it'd be like, "Squeeze out the soap from the bottle 3 times. No 4 because you might have bad luck. Now 5 to close it off and lock it in so it won't change. No, one more to have a good day today. No, you can't do 6 because that's the devil's number. One more. Now you did too much so get rid of the soap and restart. If you don't do this, you will go blind." And I just get these panicking feelings and anxiety and it's just hell. If I'm scared of losing someone, It'd be like, "If you don't do this, you'll lose this person."

That's the best I can do to describe it, I know I can't control the future but my mind is making me think I can.

Includes; 
- Kirishima has ocd.
- Fluff.? In the beginning Ig.
- Language. 
- Angst.

(3rd Person)

"You missed that." Kirishima pointed to a piece of clothing on the ground. "And that one."

"I know, I'm getting to it." Bakugou mumbled, tossing a few things into the bin.

"No, Kat. You need to get that one first and then that one and then you can go and get everything else normally." 

"Kiri--"

"NO YOU NEED TO GET THAT ONE FIRST YOUR FAMILY WILL DIE IF YOU DON'T GET THAT ONE FIRST THEY WILL DIE AND YOU WILL BURN IN A FIRE AND YOU WILL ALL DIE." He mumbled out, rushing over to keep Bakugou from picking anything else up.

"Okay, okay." Bakugou moved over to pick up the clothing his boyfriend had pointed out and watched as the redhead sighed with relief. 

"Your family is safe."

"You know, there's medicine for that?" Bakugou smirked as he finished cleaning the room.

"Mm."

...

It kept getting worse. 

Leading to anxiety and depression.

"You don't understand it, Kat. That's not how it works. I can't just stop thinking like it, it makes the anxiety worse. I know I can't control the future, my mind is just making me think I can."

"Then I don't know what to tell you. I tried helping the best I could. Listen," Bakugou mumbled, moving over to the other and grabbing his hands, gently bringing them around his waist. He placed a kiss on top of the other's head and hugged him. "I'm going out to get a few things, do you want me to bring you back snackies?"

"Yes..." Kirishima mumbled, shaking as he silently cried in his boyfriend's shoulder. 

...

Bakugou left that night with his keys in his hand as he got in the car. He felt like he was missing something though, he felt around his pockets and in the seats before it hit him. His wallet.

He got out of the car, locked it and ran back up to his house to go and grab it. When he went through the door, he had a weird feeling wash over him. 

Walking through the house, he called out to his boyfriend and asked if his wallet was up there. 

No response. He rolled his eyes and went up there anyway, ready to yell at the other about being ignored. When he made it to the door to his room, he heard soft cries coming from the bathroom.

Concerned, Bakugou walked in without any hesitation and made his way over to the door to their bathroom. 

"Kirishima." No response, the door was locked. 

And then what sounded like an irritated scream or cry like he was frustrated. And Bakugou kicked the door down in one hit. 

Kirishima was on the floor trying to get a bottle of pills open, his fingers shaking as he cried. "I can't get it open!!"

Bakugou ran over to him and took it from his hands, throwing it at the wall as it broke open and pills scattered everywhere. He gripped the other firmly and screamed. 

"YOU WERE GONNA LEAVE ME?! JUST LIKE THAT? WHAT WERE YOU THINKING!"

"I CAN'T LIVE LIKE THIS, AND THERE'S NO PERMANENT CURE?! I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WAS THINKING--"

"YOU HAVE NO RIGHT--"

"I HAVE NO RIGHT?? IT'S MY LIFE!"

"You want me to see that?? You wanted me to walk in with our snacks, excited to watch a movie with the one I cherish most only to find you laying on the ground, dead. I would've never got to feel you against my hand." His voice broke as he yelled at the other. "I would've never got to see your beautiful smile, hear your laugh, I wouldn't have anyone. Because you're all I need. I wouldn't be able to have you next to me, or listen to you talk? Warn me about your OCD bullshit? Don't let OCD win, don't let depression or anxiety win. This is YOUR body, not anything else. You got this. I will always be here."

This chapter is unedited. You wanna know something funny that I heard about? One day, I wouldn't be posting and you all would think that I just gave up on this account or this book or any of my books but in reality, I could be dead and you'd never know. Same with my friends, they'd probably think I'm ignoring them. Lol. Not funny but just needed to get that off my mind, sorry if I upsetted anyone.