Disbelief

Chapter 29: Graduation

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March 24th:

After what felt like forever, graduation came rolling around quickly. I still haven't given my answer to Oikawa and it's starting to get obvious that I've been avoiding him. I quickly make sure I'm ready and step into my car. I start driving to school and start tearing up.

'This was the best year of my life...The perfect last year anyone could have.' I think as I park the car. I spot (Bff/n), Iwaizumi, and Oikawa walking over to my car. I step out and wave at them. The tears finally fall when they stop walking. "(Y/n)-Chan, are you alright?" (Bff/n) asks and I flash her a smile.

"Of course! The best year of my life is coming to an end, how can I not be alright?" I say with a laugh and wipe the tears from my face. "I love you guys..." I mumble as Oikawa and Iwaizumi look at each other.

"Hanamaki-San and Matsukawa-San are waiting for us over there." (Bff/n) says, pointing to the entrance of the school. "Can I talk to (Y/n)-Chan alone for a second?" Oikawa asks and the other two walk away leaving us alone.

"What did you need Toru-Kun?" I ask and start twiddling my fingers. "Why are you avoiding me?" He mumbles and I look away innocently. "I haven't b-'' He interrupts me, "I know you have, I've felt it. It's gotten more noticeable recently too." He murmurs and I look up at him with guilt.

"I understand that I shouldn't have kis-" I interrupt him, "Oh for the love of God, just shut up." I say and pull him down to my level with his shirt and kiss him. He freezes for a second before wrapping his arms around me and kissing back. After a few seconds, he pulls away. "I love you..." He murmurs and I smile. "I love you too..." I mumble and we walk to the entrance with our hands intertwined.

After the Graduation Ceremony:

"Let's go hang out somewhere!" Hanamaki says and the other four I'm with agree. "You guys go ahead...I...have something to do..." I say and walk away from the group.

"Doesn't she seem off?" (Bff/n) murmurs and Matsukawa nods, "She seems conflicted." Iwaizumi and Oikawa make eye contact and start after me. "Hey what are you two doing?" Hanamaki shouts out to them. "Following her!" Iwaizumi shouts back as Oikawa starts running.

"Why?!" (Bff/n) shouts out to Iwaizumi before he gets far enough away. "She's been planning on committing suicide today, for months now!" He shouts back and the three freeze for a moment and then chase after Iwaizumi who is chasing after Oikawa, who is chasing after me.

"Damn it, I lost him." Iwaizumi huffs as the other three catch up to him. "Where do you think they went?" Hanamaki asks Matsukawa who shrugs. "Bathrooms, closets, roofs. That's where she'd commit suicide." (Bff/n) says and the others stare at her questioningly. "What? I've been suicidal before."

"I'll check the girl's bathrooms, Iwaizumi-Kun, check the boy's ones. Hanamaki-San, Matsukawa-San, go for the closets. There are a lot." She says and they nod, splitting up.

With (Y/n):

I open the door of the roof and close it behind me. I walk over to the ledge and look down. I take off my shoes and sit on the railing. I watch the clouds as I try to calm my breathing. 'It's time..' I think as I look down and start to let myself slide off the railing. Just as I let myself start to slip off the door bursts open.

I don't look to see who it is, I just let myself slide. As soon as my body no longer touches the railing, I'm yanked back over it. I gasp as I get turned around and pulled into someone's chest. I hear their heartbeat, loud and fast as well as their heavy breathing. I feel a few tears hit my hair until the person who saved me speaks.

"Why..?" Oikawa murmurs and I slowly look up at him as tears escape my eyes. "I-I..." I can't find any words to his question. "Why would you do this after telling me you loved me? I wouldn't be able to continue with you gone..." He mumbles and puts his forehead on mine.

"I really believed I could change your mind and you'd never do this..." He mumbles and I gasp through the tears. "You...knew?" I mumble and he nods. "Iwa-Chan and I figured it out after we found the razor..." He murmured and I hug him tighter.

"Gomen..." His grip tightens when I say that, "Don't, please don't ever do this again..." He murmurs and lifts my head to meet his eyes. "...I promise, I won't.." I whisper and he smiles and kisses me.