Disbelief

Chapter 12: Confrontation and Farewell

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That Night:

By now Kenma has told Koshi, Kuroo, Yaku, and Yamamoto about what Oikawa messaged him about. So they are having a conversation about how to confront me when I suddenly walk by them, to head outside at night time.

I was completely distracted by the music in my headphones to hear them. I was just replaying an hour loop of (Song) for the last few hours we've had free time. They decided to just confront me outside since we'll be alone out there.

A/N: When I was writing that part I totally wasn't watching the hour version of Lost Umbrella (E RA version). I DIDN'T WATCH IT BECAUSE OF TSUKI- He just so happened to be there and that's how I found the song-

And yes I do call Yaku, Ya-Kun, and Yamamoto, Moto-Kun.

I left the building and after a few minutes, I felt far enough away and stopped looking around to spot a small path in between some trees, I smiled and quickly ran over to the trees, when I made it to the trees I walked through the small path and then came across a hill, clear of trees with the perfect view of the sky.

I smiled to myself and walked to the center of the hill, sitting directly under the moon. I suddenly heard a tree branch snap and looked over to where I came from out of curiosity.

"Kenma-Kun..? Kuroo-Kun...? Ya-Kun...? Moto-Kun...? Koshi..?" I mumble as they walk over to me. "What are you guys doing out here?" I say and Kuroo gives me a conflicted smile. "We were by the front' door when you left." Koshi says and sits down beside me.

"Oh really? Why...?" I mumble and the boys look at each other, sitting around me in a circle. "What's with the weird circle around me?" I say skeptically and Kenma clears his throat, causing me to turn my attention to him.

"Well, Oikawa-San messaged me a few days ago." Kenma mumbles and I tilt my head. "How'd he get your number?" I ask and he looks at me like I'm an idiot. "####1994?" Kenma says and I laugh. "Oh, right I haven't changed my pin yet." I mumble and shake my head. "So he snuck on my phone when I went to the bathroom." I grumble as I mentally plot his murder.

"Before you continue your plot to kill him, let me finish." Kenma says and I grumble. "He told me about the bloodied razor he saw in the bathroom." I freeze as my breath hitches.

"I did the obvious thing and told everyone here, although since I don't have Sugawara's contact I just told him today." Kenma says as I try to swallow the lump in my throat. "I-I-" Yaku interrupts me with tears in his eyes, "W-why would you do that to yourself!" I look at him shocked and then look at the ground.

"Everyone in this circle cares deeply for you." Yamamoto says and everyone makes a sound of agreement. I start to tear up and laugh. "I know.." I say and Koshi bumps into me jokingly. "Then why!" Koshi says with a slight voice crack, even if he's trying to show little emotion.

I look at him and see his eyes almost letting out the growing tears in his eyes. "Ko-" He interrupts me, "(Y/n) why? Just why?! We all care about you so much and then you do something like that, which could kill you!"

I stare at him blankly and then look at everyone else with the same expression. "What if I want it to kill me?" I say without thinking. Everyone looks at me, disbelief evident in their eyes. "W-what?" Kenma says, not believing I'd actually say that. "What?" I say, tilting my head. "Did I say something weird?"

Kuroo looks at me with nothing but love, pain, and worry swirling around his eyes. "Ye-" I interrupt Yaku, "No. No, I didn't. Because based on my situation if you didn't have some bad coping mechanism, I'd be even worse than I am right now." I say flatly.