The Devil's Daughter | D.M

8 - 3 am

Cassiopeia pov

Nightmare over nightmare no matter how much i try to push them in the back of my head they don't go away. Occlumency was becoming useless they wouldn't leave. Rest less nights drained me more. When i would sleep i would wake up drenched in sweat and screaming thank merlin for silencing spells i didn't want anyone to know about this.

I walked down the common room it was nearly 3 in the morning the only sound was the fire cracklings and my foot steps. I sat on the couch playing with my wand that was in between my fingers. My eyes were tired but i couldn't seem to let myself fall asleep mostly in the common room. I knew what would happen if i were to fall asleep.

" Can't sleep" I heard a voice behind me i quickly turn around to make sure it wasn't the lack of sleep but no there stood Malfoy in checkered green pajama bottom - typical - and a white tee. I caught myself looking for too long that i quickly turned my attention back to the fire. It's just the lack of sleep Cassiopeia i reminded myself.

" No" i replied flatly. He took a seat on the couch on the right to the one i was on. We stood there in complete silence until he broke it " I - fuck I-"
He struggled to get his words out as i looked at him in the eyes. " I'm sorry for calling you a whore" That took me my surprise i expect anything from Malfoy but an apology. I scanned his face for any sort of unworthiness or something that gave away that he was lying. I saw nothing he looked truthful like he was truly ashamed.

" My mother did raise me better and i failed her, i failed the only woman who never gave up on me -fuck she was so scared that i would be like my father that she tried to educate me differently but it was all useless- i'm just like my father." As he spoke his wall broke one piece at a time and at the end it complete demolished. The only thing that was left was a vulnerable Malfoy at my feet. He looked terrified at the thought of him becoming his father. So did I.

" I don't want to become like my father either " I spoke truthfully which he looked at me confused as why i opened up to him but it just felt right to open to him. Yes he is a little bitch with daddy issues but he's the only person i know who can understand what it's like to be scared of becoming a replica of your father. " But i am already just like him " I looked away back to the fire hoping that talking about this would make me feel at least sadness ,let me feel something. Nothing i felt nothing absolute numbness and i hated it. The only feeling i ever felt was anger.

" Guess we have that in common huh" He said chuckling while leaning back on the couch with his legs slightly spread i couldn't seem to get my eyes off him but why? he was a bitch who was a total asshole to me. He was attractive no denying that but his personality ruined everything. He noticed me staring and cocked an eyebrow up " Done looking" I quickly looked away trying to look everywhere but him.

I felt the spot next to me sink and the warmth of his presence on my right side. I stayed looking at the fire trying to tame the flames with wand less magic but with him by my side i couldn't concentrate.

What is happening to me why is Draco Malfoy affecting me?!

" I'm sorry i really am i don't say that a lot but i knew how much it would affect my mother, i promise i won't call another girl that either" He said looking at me but i couldn't look back at him i just nodded " You would be having a death wish if you did" I said trying to regain myself god Cassiopeia this is why you need sleep.

" I would" Why was he being like this, like if we were friends because we were very far from that point i doubt we would ever get to that point. I glanced to my side one of his hands was on his thigh and the other was on his - Oh merlin Cassiopeia stop it i scowled myself. His hand was there merlin his hands were hot the veins popped up slightly. Cassiopeia enough go to sleep. You even said it yourself if you could get anyone at Hogwarts why would i ever pick Malfoy.

" Well goodnight Malfoy and apology half accept until you show that you actually meant what you said i will fully accept it" I got up to leave but feel his cold hand wrap around my arm his ring a bit colder than his hand. He pulls me lightly back to the couch then looks directly in my eyes and i look into his. His eyes were cold but i knew behind them was warmth i doubt he would be able to say the same about mine. His were totally beautiful they resembled a rainy cloudy sky they were blue that mimicked the sky and the grey mimicked the rainy clouds.

" Your eyes their beautiful " He said in awe as his hand slowly was brought up to my cheek. I need to move i told myself. Move Cassiopeia, Move now he's Draco Malfoy! Move. My body didn't move an inch it was like if his eyes were hypnotizing me.

He inches closer to me so my bare knee was touching
his thigh. " Do i make you uncomfortable" he asked his face getting closer each word he spoke. I shook my head no, he smiled very faintly. His hand went from my cheek to the back of my neck.

He didn't waste anymore time and brought his lips towards mine. My eyes widen in the sudden movement but i couldn't help but give in. Feel something Cassiopeia feel something i demanded myself but i felt nothing not a single butterfly as people say they feel when they kiss someone. Not a single spark i felt. His lips were still attached to mine, one of his hand was on my right cheek while the other was on the back of my neck.

" Oh would you look at that Blaise" I quickly pulled away and stood up breathing heavily " See wha- oh OH" The two boys stood at the bottom of the boys dormitory stair case a smirk plastered on each of their face. Draco quickly got up standing next to me which i moved over. " That didn't mean anything so you saw nothing now if you excuse me i need to sleep" I stated trying to get away before they made a deal out of something that didn't have any significance- to me at least.

Draco's face said otherwise he looked at me like i was crazy " That meant nothing to me Malfoy you are the one that kissed me" He looked at me mouth opened. Theo and Blaise stood still Theo was enjoying the show while Blaise seemed uncomfortable. " How could you say it didn't mean anything - of course it meant something you kissed me back you had to feel something"

" We should probably leave " Blaise said to Theo " Wait it's getting good " Theo was liking the drama that was unfolding while i didn't. Did i not say i couldn't feel anything i don't have feeling.

" Well i didn't i kissed back out of impulsion but i didn't feel anything i can't feel anything Malfoy" He scoffed rolling his tongue inside his cheek. This boy had some serious bipolar issues. " You can you just don't want to" He spat while walking past Theo and Blaise up to his dormitory.

" He felt something Cassiopeia that kiss most likely meant something to him" Theo said as he looked back and forth between the dormitory door Draco went into and me

" I can't feel anything Theo i didn't feel anything" Why couldn't they get that inside their heads if i could i would feel something but i can't this stupid curse doesn't let me.

" Goodnight Cass" Both Theo and Blaise left to the dorm Draco went into. I stood there in the common room but Draco's voice rang to my head - you can you just don't want to-. Can he be right maybe if i force myself maybe i can feel.

I hate Malfoy he is now messing with my head his stupid voice is stuck in my head on repeat saying i could i just don't want to and maybe he's right because every person i did love i killed.

A little foreshadowing moment ...