After listening to the audio himself, just the look on his face confirmed everything.
Noah told me that he originally started seeing me to use me against my father. That Parker had once promised to devote his life to finding revenge for his mother. Noah said it was because my father caused her death, and I understood Parker's need for revenge.
But that did not mean for a second I was any less angry or heart broken. I was crushed. Parker did not love me, he used me. Like everyone else, like I was nothing. Just a simple and brainless girl. Not Riley Atkinson, just the daughter of David Atkinson.
"You are a horrible person. I despise you."
I scowled and I whipped my head around to avoid his gaze. It was a gaze that was genuine, and the gaze of the man I fell in love with.
It was not that I couldn't look at him because I hated him, it was because I couldn't see his eyes, or I might just run into his arms and act stupidly around someone who did not love me. He grabbed my hand and squeezed it.
"Sh*t, Riley, I love you. Do you hear me!? I love you. More than I ever deemed possible, more than words can describe. I would do anything for you. I want to spend forever with you Riley. I can't lose you. I need your smile to lighten up every one of my days. I need your laugh to make me laugh. I need your voice to simply hear the voice of the one that I am completely and hopelessly in love with!" He paused but shortly continued.
"And when you feel down, I want to share your sadness, I want to be the one who gives you a shoulder to cry on. I want to hear you tell me how your day was every evening, no matter how boring that particular day might have been. I just want to love you forever because I need you. I love you. The only reason I couldn't tell you I loved you before is because I was consumed by guilt, but I have loved you longer than I originally realised."
I allowed the silence to linger unpleasantly in the air. They were words I had longed to here, but could they mean anything anymore now that I knew he was a liar. I couldn't trust a work that came out of his mouth, even if it sounded sincere.
He had been fooling me for a long time already, and I was not about to watch him fool me once again.
"I loved you, Parker. And I waited every day waiting for you to tell me because you know damn well, I am way to nervous to be the first one to say that. But right now? I can't even look at you. I couldn't ever trust you. I was hurt so many times by so many different people and I..."
Floods of tear began streaming from my eyes. I turned back to face him just so he could see my pain, but I avoided his eyes.
"I really believed you were different! How stupid of me! I'm sorry, I am ridiculous this is not your fault but mine. I was naive enough to think someone could care for me, after everything, after all the emotional support I need! It was hard to face the truth, I guess. Even at my worst of times. I am ready now to accept it. I am unlovable." I wept.
"No, for goodness sake, no! Don't think I am like the other's that hurt you, it's a list I don't want to be part of because I am different from Ben and your Father, and the other people who have been awful to you!" He argued.
"You are right." I sniffed and tried to wipe my tears away, but they kept coming.
"You are worse. My father and Ben were awful to me, they betrayed my trust, but at least I somewhat knew they weren't good people. However you, you gave me hope things could be different and you painted this perfect fantasy where I could finally be happy, but you fooled me. You manipulated me like no other, I was once again used to get to my father and lied to. And with you, it is the worst because I loved you!"
I was almost screaming, and I had so many thoughts running through my head. I was so broken.
"Riley, if you can't forgive me, I can understand that. I have never forgiven myself since I got to know you. Just promise me you will move on." He tried to grab my hand again, but I snatched it away.
"I am a bad person, maybe, but you deserve to be loved. One day you will find someone who treats you like a queen. When you find that person, nothing will be so bad anymore and they will never betray you. I wish that could be me, but not more than I want you to be happy." I breathed slowly.
"No." I murmured. "What you have done is beyond repair. Because you can not love someone and live a happy life with someone when you love someone else. But the man I will forever love does not exist. Because I will forever love, is the man I thought you were."
That was enough for him to finally fall silent. We stood in the silence and I turned away again so I would not be tempted to read his eyes.
"The plane tickets are in another week." He added sheepishly.
"If you think I wish to spend another second, let alone another week with you, you are an idiot." I growled.
"We can fly back today if I make a call, then-" He began.
"No. I will be flying back on my own in a normal plane. Not your posh little private jet, and certainly not with you." I tried to cut off my tears just to look strong at least. Even if I was completely shattered inside, not showing that to anyone had always been my way of life before him. It would be after him too.
"I will book a hotel until I can get a flight cheap enough because I have no clue if I have the money to afford a flight."
"I will give you the money for your hotel room and flight." He said.
"I don't need your money, your pity, or your charity!" I raised my voice again. I ran out the door and I began packing. Parker did not interfere anymore. I did not know the exact reason for it, but I did not care to put too much thought into either.
I left the chalet as soon as I could, and I search for a place to stay on my newly broken phone from dropping it on the floor in shock.
I found somewhere cheap that was only a couple of miles away, I called them and booked a room whilst walking over there. I could not waste money on a ride to the hotel because I needed every bit I had.
When I was in the hotel room, I threw my bags down and I broke down. I stared and my ugly reflection, and I tore the necklace Parker had bought me from my neck. I held it in my hands and looked at it. 'Infinity' it meant forever. More lies.
I held it over the bin, but I could not make myself drop it. I cried more as I tried to be stronger. I couldn't, I was weak again. I stuffed it in my pocket, and I lay flat onto my bed as I screamed in my pillow.
"How could he so this?" I whispered still headfirst on my pillow. "How could I trust him? This is why I never trusted people."
I'm dying I think
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