The Living Fictions

Chapter 13

Chapter Thirteen

I couldn't think about the last time I have appreciated silence and being alone.

It was already almost seven o'clock, at dahil may pinuntahan sina mommy at daddy na party ay mag-isa ako ngayon rito and it was like I'm being free. Siguro ay naninibago lang ako dahil sa panibagong atmosphere na nararanasan ko. A home without people arguing as if it becames their daily routine.

It was dinner time at dahil nga mag-isa lang naman ako, ni-microwave ko nalang ang mga leftovers kanina siguro ito ang ulam na niluto ni mommy sa breakfast at dahil tumakas ako'y hindi ko ito nakain. I was eating there alone yet I wasn't scared. Ngayon ko lang narealize, why am I even scared of being alone before? Eh ang sarap sa feeling dahil para kang walang iniisip na iba kundi sarili mo lang.

Nang matapos akong mag-dinner ay niligpit ko rin ang aking pinagkainan. I decided to clean the kitchen first before going to my room. Thankfully wala naman kaming homeworks kaya I have free time. Sa senior high kasi, it feels miracle kapag wala kayong homework, though kung walang homework, meron namang irereview kasi halos inaraw-araw ang long quiz.

Namiss ko nang magbasa kaya napagdesisyunan kong basahin ulit iyong libro na bigay ni lolo sa'kin. Simula nung nagbalik-skwela na ay ang tagal ng progress ko sa pagbabasa ng libro. Eh dati halos tapusin ko lang ang mga ito ng isang araw lang. If it's not lolo, si dad ang usually nagbibili ng books para sa'kin. I remember when I turned 14 years old, he even gave me bundle of books. Kaya favorite birthday ko talaga iyong 14th birthday ko kasi, kahit wala si Daddy buong araw non, may niregalo pa din siya sa'kin kaya narealize kong, okay na din iyon.

“You know what, I couldn't stop thinking about you since that night. Nakaka-tangina kasi hindi naman ako ganito dati.”

Halos mapatakip ako sa aking bibig. Did I read it right? Solari just confessed her feelings towards Chester! Hindi ko inaasahan iyon kasi for the past chapters, all they do was habulan (may ginagawa na naman kasing kabulastugan itong si Solari at ito namang si Chester, he felt responsible for calling her actions out).

Solari was pertaining about their Halloween Party. It was celebrated at night at nung panahong iyon ay para nang nagkasundo ang dalawa. Habang abala ang nakararami sa party, it happened that Chester was kinda suffocated by the crowd kaya naman tumungo ito sa garden sa likurang parte ng eskwelahan. There, he saw Solari heaved in tears. Solari was carrying a problem but she couldn't say it towards Chester even though he comforted her and shower her words that could light up her emotions.

“And I never cared to any woman like this before. Akala mo ba ay ikaw lang ang naninibago, Solari?”

“Oooh,” I stopped for a while. OMG! I mean, Chester in his point of view kinda confessed that he has something special feelings towards Solari but I didn't know that he would confessed it right away!

Solari raised her brows for confusion as if it was what I said was a big logic. Logic talaga dahil pati ako, it took me weeks to realize what this feeling was. It was like I was trapped in a devil trap. I know that once I tell my feelings, I'm risking all my emotions—especially with a girl like her. Solari isn't type of someone who fall easily. Parang bato kasi ang puso nito at halos ang hirap niyang makiramdam. Even if you'll guilt-trip her, it won't work. She'll ended up gaslighting you for acting that way. Ganoon siya ka-cruel. That's why I tell myself that I'm being trap at a devil's trap.

I've read the chapters continuously and it was about Chester starts to court Solari. At dahil nga hard-to-get talaga itong si Solari ay nahihirapan si Chester dahil dito. There was a time when Chester gave her a bouquet of roses, it happened that she has allergies in it at nung binigyan siya nito ng chocolates, she didn't accept it kasi may tonsillitis siya nung mga panahong iyon. Kung ako siguro si Chester, matagal na'kong napasuko.