The Living Fictions

Chapter 27

Chapter Twenty-Seven

“Medyo nainip lang ako noong nakita kong hinayaan mong mabasa ng lahat ang librong iyon. Hindi naman sa hindi ako nakamove-on, para kasing ako iyong pinagmumukhang masama roon eh.” She added.

I am supposed to talk to them right now but why  am I ended up crying? Hanggang kailan ba na ganito? nakakainip rin eh. Ngunit imbes na lumapit sa kanilang direksyon ay hinayaan ko nalang ang sarili ko na mapako roon sa aking kinatatayuan. And it seems like they haven't seen me at all.

“Now you're saying that you choose this family?” She smirked. “Pinipili mo pa pala kami sa lagay na'to? You can't even stay at home just for a day! Tapos sasabihin mo, babawi ka nalang financially? Malamang, you should provide financially because that's your responsibility, Chester. Pero kung akala mo, nadadala lang sa pera ang pagkawala ng presensya mo dito, hindi. Have you seen Aye always got disappointed everytime there's a special even that you're not around? I bet no. But I've seen it all, Chester.”

Pagkatapos nang mahabang sinabi ni mommy ay isang nakakabinging katahimikan ang bumalot sa buong silid. My tears are slowly falling. I didn't thought that Mom saw it. Akala ko, wala siyang pakialam kasi minsan niya lang naman ako kinakausap eh.

I can hear Dad muttered a curse midair. “What should I do? I need to be at work, Harriette, alin ba doon ang hindi mo maintindihan? Tsaka h'wag mo ngang idamay si Ayezza dito! She understands me!”

“Kasi putangina, wala siyang choice!” Mom's voice echoed. “But I can read her emotions, Chester. She wished she could ask you to stay but she can't. Kasi alam niya, hindi ka niya mapipigilan.”

“Do you even see her reaction everytime I give her something she likes? When I give her her favorite book. I saw a glowing happiness in our daughter's eyes. Alam ko na may pagkukulang ako, Harriette. But maybe you're right. Akala ko sapat na iyon para punan ko ang pagkukulang ko bilang ama niya. Pero bakit parang mali ang ginawa ko? what's wrong about it Harriette?” Dad said frustratingly.

A glowing happiness in my eyes...

Iyong ang paraan niya para punan ang mga pagkukulang niya sa akin. Yes. I really appreciated it. Nagustuhan ko ang kwentong nakapaloob sa librong iyon. I don't know if it's bad to say this but I wish for something more. I want Dad to be with me. Like, we could spend quality time with each other reading books if only he could.

“Talaga? Iyon talaga ang akala mo? Akala mo napapasaya mo si Ayezza? No Chester! Kasi hindi iyong mga binibigay mo ang kailangan niya. Can't you see it? she wants you! Nasasaktan ako everytime na nakikitang dismayado ang reaction niya sa tuwing palagi ka na lang busy—”

“Then I'm sorry, I don't know what to do anymore!”

“Can you just leave for a while? I need space—”

“Putangina, ano bang pinagsasabi mo?” Dad's brows creased.

“These past few days, I've been suffocated by our relationship. Hindi ‘to tama, Chester. And it's for the both of us. You can go wherever you want for awhile. I'm freeing you.”

“Harriette naman? Ayaw kong umalis!”

When I realized what Mom just had said, a tear from my escaped.

“Please, you can go to Papa's house, for a while. You can stay there. H'wag muna ngayon, please lang maawa ka naman sa akin Chester, palagi nalang akong nagtitiis.” She shook her head.

Dad smirked but his eyes went reddish. “Fine.”

“N-Nakahanda na ang mga gamit mo sa kwarto. You can leave before Aye could even arrive.”