This story is based on a true moment that happened in my life but I changed the scene a little.
WHAT HE WANTS ABOUT A WOMAN
I was holding my own cup of coffee when a thought slipped in my mind. Hindi ko maiwasang mapaisip.
Ganito kasi yon, eh. Ang dami nang alam ni Chris sa akin and here I am, trying to read every actions he makes. Feel ko ang creepy ko dahil kanina pa ako nakatitig sa boyfriend kong taimtim na nakatitig sa kaniyang binabasang aklat.
Tapping my fingers on the cold surface of the table, I heaved up courage to ask him, "What do you like about a woman?" biglaang tanong ko out of nowhere.
Yes, I am creepy. I know. Pero I'm curious, he never talks about what he likes or want about a woman.
"Again, baby?" he gestured na sabihin ko ulit and leaned forward without closing his book.
"What do you want about a woman or like to have for a woman that you wanted to marry?" I asked with an awkward smile.
He fell into his boxy smile. My favorite boxy smile.
Chris placed his books down on the table and stared at me. His eyes are deeply bored through me na para bang binabasa niya yung kung ano ang nasa isipan ko ngayon.
What? I'm nervous. Gusto ko din kayang malaman kung ano yung gusto niya sa isang babae no? Duh.
"I want a woman..." he paused and stared at me, "...a woman who loves herself."
Nagkunot ang noo ko, "That's it? No vital standards? Di mo man lang ba pipiliin yung mga C-cups? Or what?"
He chuckled, "Silly, no, of course not."
"Eh? Di nga?"
"Hindi nga sabi. " He chuckled again and took my hand from the table, gentle playing my fingers as he stared at them.
Luko. Ako pa lulukohin nito? Tse!
He added, "I want a woman who loves herself. I mean, what's the point of loving someone who can't love herself first?"
My jaw dropped, "Is this the reason-"
"Yes, this is the reason why I did not accepted your confession way back in highschool. You were so dumb, so immature back then. Hinahabol mo ako to the point na wala ka nang pakialam sa sarili mo. Its not true na you can't love someone if you don't love yourself first. But you know, " he smiled and placed a kiss on the back of my hand, " I can't afford letting you love me knowing na if I break your heart, you will lose yourself. Remember what I said to you back then?"
I gulped, "You will never love a girl like me."
"Yep, totoo yon." He sighed.
"Huh?" My heart broke.
"Totoo yon." He smiled, "You were this silly little girl back then. But now, look at you..." he caressed my cheek, "You are now a grown up woman."
I was confused, "What do you mean?"
"I want a woman, and not just any girl." and placed a kiss on my forehead. "A woman who can be a mother to my kids and not just a girl to play with."
Did my heart just melt?
Because you see, he's right.
A girl can love you forever stupidly without any conditions.
But a woman will love you responsibly.
What is love if you don't have a responsible and mature partner?
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