This story is based on a true moment that happened in my life but I changed the scene a little.
I AM MAD AT MY BOYFRIEND
"Baby, I'm jealous." napalingon ako ni Chris na biglang humilig sa kin sabay abot sa phone ko.
Agad ko itong kinuha saka tiningnan. Di ko mapigilang mapairap nang makita kung ano ang pinagseselosan niya.
Yung kaibigan ko lang pala na lalaki ang nagtext na pupunta siya dito sa bahay. Nandito kasi sa bahay si Chris dahil wala daw siyang trabaho, nagpapalambing lang naman.
"Palagi na lang ba, Chris?" Diretsuhan kong tanong sa kaniya.
Alam niyang wala ako sa mood ngayon pero ganto pa din pinaggagawa, iniinis pa ako.
“Ba't pa kasi siya pumupunta dito sa bahay mo? Ang sipsip niya kay mama." ngumuso siya na parang bata.
I rolled my eyes, “You know what? You're being immature. Nakakaumay na yang pagiging isip-bata mo, Chris!"
Tumingala siya sa kin na nakakunot ang noo. The two of us are sitting on a couch while watching the tv. Akala ko nanonood siya pero pinapakialaman lang pala yung phone ko.
“Why are you mad?" nakakunot ang noo niyang tanong, “I was just saying na you should stop letting him come inside the house. Palagi na lang kasi. May gusto ba siya sa yo? Are you two hiding something from me?"
“Ano ba yan, Chris?! Wala kaming tinatago sa yo. Yang lalaki na tinutukoy mo ay parang kapatid ko na. Ganyan na ba ako kalandi sa tingin mo?" tumayo ako sa kinauupuan, “Akala ko ba may tiwala ka sa kin?"
"I trust you ,baby." Tumayo din siya saka hinawakan ang balikat ko pero tinulak ko siya paalis.
“Then bakit nagseselos ka? If you trust me then why are you so jealous?! Paulit-ulit na lang!" I blurted, “Nakakasawa na tong ganto, Chris! Nagseselos ka na lang sa mga walang kwentang bagay!" I groaned.
He put me in place using both of his hands na nakahawwak sa magkabilang braso. Nakakairita siya, to be honest. Sinubukan kong kumalma pero mas lalo lang ata akong nagalit.
“Baby, are you mad at me?" tanong niya sa kin while trying to catch my gaze.
Umiwas ako ng tingin, “Hindi."
“Kung hindi, why did you yelled at me?" He chuckled, "Is my baby mad at me?" he cupped ny face and kissed me on my forehead, “I'm sorry. I got jealous. Its just that, I can't help it. May tiwala naman ako sa yo. I'm sorry I made you doubt me."
Napakurap ako sa kaniya ng ilang beses. I expected him to be mad at me too. But why?
Binitawan niya ang mukha ko saka umupo sa couch, pinagpag niya ang kaniyang tabi.
He beckoned, “Sit with me, baby." And smiled.
Hindi ako umupo at nanatiling nakatayo.
Why is he not mad at me? Akala ko magagalit din siya. I know my actions a moment ago. I was being dramatic, overeacting.
“Why, baby? May problema ba?" Tanong niya sa kin.
“Wala." I shook my head saka napaupo na din sa tabi niya.
We never got to fight. Because, he will always end it right away like right now. Akala ko napakalma ko na ang sarili pero mas lalo lang akong naiinis sa kaniya.
“Why are you not mad at me?" Tanong ko sa kaniya.
Nag-abot ang kilay niyang lumingon sa kin, “Ano yon?"
"Bakit di ka nagalit sa kin? I mean, I just... Never mind. " huminga ako ng malalim.
Its no use. I just need some air.
“Why am I not mad at you?" he pursed his lips, “Should I be mad at you din ba dahil galit ka sa kin, baby?"
I shrugged, "Forget it." .
"You know, inside a relationship especially inside an argument dapat balance ang lahat. We both know na you can't put out fire with fire, baby." He smiled.
My eyebrows furrowed.
“I heard this back when I was a kid during a homily in the church. This has been stuck in my mind and I have used it everytime when a fight starts." humarap siya sa kin, “Kapag apoy ang isa, dapat tubig naman ang kabila. You can't put out fire with fire because you both will burn. You can't add water to water because you two will drown. Do you get my point here?"
I blinked.
“You have to use water to put out fire, and fire to melt that ice." He smiled.
I can't help but stare at him as his eyes began to be filled with stars.
“Kung ang isa galit, dapat magpapakumbaba din ang isa. A relationship have to be balanced. Kung hindi, matatapos ito o mawawala." he pouted, “I don't want this relationship to end so as long as kaya kong magpakumbaba, gagawin ko. I don't wanna lose you, baby. I never lost a fight. I can't lose you in some stupid fights. But yeah, I was jealous even though I know I'm the only man you love."
Now, I am mad.
I am mad at my boyfriend because of how wonderful his words are.
I must be that frozen ice because to tell you the truth, natutunaw na din ako ngayon.
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