I'm Just Me

Chapter 14

I open my eyes slowly and see flowers, balloons, teddy bears surrounding me.

I see Jai, Scott, and random people from school in front of me.

"She's up!" Jai yells.

Everyone cheers which makes me smile.

I thought no one cared.

"Hey," I say weakly.

"Hey," Jai pulls a chair next to me.

I felt uncomfortable because I probably looked hideous so I didn't really want all these eyes on me.

I covered my face and laughed. Jai comes close and hugs me tight.

"Cheyenne came clean about writing that tweet," Scott says.

Really?!

"What about Jazzy?" I ask with my mouth wide.

"She wouldn't confess but Cheyenne told them that she was involved," Jai answers.

"I told you," I grin widely.

"Yeah you did and I was dumb," Jai held my hand tightly.

"I can't just come into the hospital without a guardian," I realize.

"Oh well you didn't," Everyone separates from a bunched up group which reveals my mom behind them all.

"Mom?!" I say filled with joy but anger at the same time.

"Hon' I love you so much and I'm sorry I haven't shown you the love you deserve but you commiting suicide twice made me realize that I need to do a waaaay better job at being a mom. I love you so much," my mom walks over and hugs me gently.

And I hug back.

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I was at Jai's house once again but this time my mom came over as well.

She was all fresh smelling and had her makeup done beautifully.

I was in Jai's room sitting on his bed and I was looking in the treasure box full of pictures again.

Jai was using the bathroom and snuck up on me by jump onto the bed and wrapping his arms around my waist.

I felt the tingles.

Then he fell back on the bed and still had me in his arms so that my back was against his stomach.

It wasn't as uncomfortable as it might sound...

We sat there in silence for a while and then he asked me a question.

"Will you be my girlfriend?" He kisses my forehead.

I didn't know what to say. We are best friends and I wasn't expecting him to ask me that at least at that moment.

"Yes Jai, yes," I flip myself over so that my stomach was on top of his stomach.

Then I kissed him and he kissed back.

When we stopped kissing, we stared in each other's eyes.

"I've always liked you since you left me," I say as a tear drops down my eye and onto Jai's cheek.

"I've loved you since...forever," he kisses me again.

I close my eyes and enjoy the moment.

I got Jai.

Me the weirdo, ugly, suicidal girl got Jai.

But really I know I'm weird.

I'm still weird.

And I won't complain.

I'm not as ugly as I thought.

And yes I am suicidal..but what reason would I have to be now.

I'm not gonna try and change like I did anymore.

I'm gonna be myself.

And I like myself.

And I have no choice but to accept it anyways...

Because... I'm Just Me.

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