𝗠𝘆 𝗦𝗮𝘃𝗶𝗼𝗿³ // 𝘑𝘢𝘥𝘦𝘯 𝘏𝘰𝘴𝘴𝘭𝘦𝘳

chapter 10

What actually made me realize that I need her back is that every single day of my life I got photos from. That guy and her. It made me mad like crazy. And when Addison told me that I'm a total loser because I let that girl go out of. My life I broke a glass. She was damn right. And Bryce and I planned on going to the mall, Cooper told us they'll hang out there so I had to go, I was craving to see her. Two months. Two fucking months and I could just see her on picture with a different guy. I got so jealous.
And when she told me yesterday she was just basically using that guy to try to get over me took half the weight of me. No matter how bad it sounds it made me feel better that she still has feelings for me.
And now I'm taking her on the dinner, she's looking great as always, and there I am, little ungrateful piece of shit. What did I do to have this girl? I do not deserve her.

"What are you thinking about?"
"Hm?"
"You look deep in your thoughts."
"Oh, I just, I just thought how much of idiot I was to let you go and treat you like I treated you. You deserve so much better than me."
"Look, I do agree you were and still are a idiot, but I guess we both did stuff we aren't much proud of and I think every relationship has its ups and downs but it just makes a stronger bond between two."
"I just,"
I stopped for a second taking her hand in mine.
"I just want you to know that I love you, like so damn much, I can't even explain it. And I also want you to know that you are more to me than just your body, and I want you because of you, not just for hooking up. I promise you. And I promise you I will try my best to change for you. I need to change for you. I want to change for you. Cause I can't lose you again."
She pressed her lips nodding.
"So, are you going to give me a chance?"
"Do you really think that I'd be sitting here right now if I wasn't going to?"
"N-No?"
"Of course not you dumbass!"
I cheered and she giggled at me. Dammit I missed her giggle.

"Okay, we're here."
We got out the car, checking the reservation and sitting at our table.
We walked in, her tiny soft hand in mine. I gave her a soft squeeze before I let go of her hand, getting her chair out for her to sit and then sitting on the opposite side.
Guy gave us the menus and we talked while deciding what are we going to eat.
After our amazing dinner, we sat. Back in the car.
"Um, do you want to go back with me, or Malibu, or somewhere else?"
"Um, Malibu."
"Okay."
I already kinda had a feeling she wouldn't give up immediately but I don't mind it while I still have chances with her.

"Okay, I'll see you soon pretty, you can call me anytime if something happens or you need anything."
"Okay. Thank you for the dinner Jae."
"Of course."
"Okay, good night Jae, I'll see you soon."
"Good night beautiful, see ya."
I kissed the back of her hand and she gave me a big smile. Dammit, I love it so much. Her smiling. I could die for that.
She waved before she walked in the house smiling. I waved back, driving off after I made sure she is inside and alright.
This is your last chance Jaden. Do not fuck it up again.

While I was driving back to my house I got message from Addison so I called her since I'm not able to text right now.

"Hi Addi."
"Hii brotha, so how did it go?"
"It went pretty well, we talked, dinner was nice, and damn she was so fucking beautiful. Her haircut is even better in person then on pictures. Yesterday it was half up half down so I couldn't see it really good."
"That's great news! We are getting somewhere!"
"Yeah. Where are my chickens?"
"I just put them to sleep, Bryce is in shower so I thought you maybe finished the dinner so I had to hear how did it go."
"Oh good."
"Okay, so you are sending her flowers again every morning?"
"Yes, only if I'm not going there, then I'm going to give it to her personally."
"Okay, that's really nice."
"Well I hope so. Oh my God did you see how Marley grew up?"
"Yeah, he is all big now."
"Yeah, I didn't expect him to be that big."

We kept talking for a bit more and then I hung up driving alone in black car, tapping my fingers on steering wheel to the beat of music and humming some lyrics of different songs. Then the song came up, making me think about the memory when we were on vacation, on the beach, it was a nice dinner date, even though we just ate ice cream and drank lemonade.

"Ooh, I love this song." Lexi said pouting and listening to music that played.
"What's this one called?"
"The night we met."
"C'mon."
I stood up, putting my hand for her to take it.
"What are you doing?"
"Would you like to dance with me, my beautiful lady?"
She pouted letting out a giggle.
"Yeah, I'd like to dance with you, my handsome man."
She said in same tone as me, widely smiling.
We both smiled like freaks, her arms wrapped around my neck and my hands on her waist. Her pinkish dress perfectly fitting her body, pointing out all the perfect curves of her.
We danced in sand, and I soon realized one more couple, gradma and gradpa joined us, few feet away behind us.
I can imagine us being all gray and old like that, dancing, still deeply in love with each other.

Then my thoughts led me to the actual night we met.

As soon as I pushed away that bastard I squatted down to girl that was sitting on the floor, her back against the wall and her legs to her chest. She was sobbing, she couldn't even breathe normally. poor girl.
"Hey, hey, you are safe now. Okay?"
"Please, please, I'm 17."
"17? Where did you even find her?! You know that submissive needs to be over 18! Dickhead! Great just great!"
"I'm sorry boss." He mumbled just like some pussy. He just acted all tough trying to rape a girl and now all shy and innocent. Piece of shit.
"GET. OUT."
"what?"
"Did you not hear me?! You can't work if you can't do one shit right!"
"Please, boss, I'll make this up. I didn't know she was 17."
"I SAID GET OUT." I yelled at Max. I was so fucking angry. How stupid and fucking disrespectful you gotta be to try touching any woman without permission. One no is no, no matter what she is or what her job is.
"AND WHAT ARE Y'ALL WAITING FOR? GO! NOW!
Hey, sweetheart, look at me. Hey, it's okay, you are okay."
I whispered to her pulling her in my chest. After few seconds she gave up, hugging me really tight, she was so scared. Poor girl, only seventeen.
"You are alright, okay?
I'm gonna get you to a safe place okay? I won't do anything bad to you."
I sat down on my bed with her on my lap as she just cried and cried. Poor girl, this world is so sad and man are so disgusting. Sometimes I'm even disgusted by myself that I am one of those and that maybe woman on the street is afraid exactly of me that I'll do something bad to her.
"What's your name?" I sweetly asked, but you could still hear harsh tone in my voice, I was still really mad.
"Lexi." She shyly answered me, looking everywhere but my eyes.
"How did you even get here Lexi?"
I asked, interested in what happened there, she obviously didn't come here herself.
I waited for her to answer, but I noticed she was staring at my hair and probably zoned out, since she didn't say a thing. She looked really cute though, but it's wrong, I need to take care of her right now, she just went through one of worst things on the planet.
"Lexi?" I said her name, trying to bring her attention back to me.
"I'm sorry, I zoned out." She said, looking like she is about to break down crying again.
"It's okay. You wanna tell me how you got here?" I asked while stroking her hair, trying to comfort her. She didn't seem bothered by it though.
She quickly explained me her whole day in one breath and I sat there trying to proceed everything she said. How stupid, he literally said he is an Uber driver. Oh my God.
Just as I started talking Cooper interrupted calling me for meeting.
I took her with me to the office in case maids come to clean my room.

Damn she indeed stole my heart just first day. But I fucking saved her then and I didn't manage to do it this time. It breaks me every time. It brings me down, makes me anxious and mad.
Why. couldn't. I. save. her.?
I wish I could go back through time and save her on time before he touched her. Fucking bastard. At least he isn't on this earth now anymore.

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For some reason I really like this chapter, especially the flash backs, I don't know.
Tell me how you like this one?
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